I am tired of packing but thankfully it's almost done. Yay... I ist tired. Well we're leaving tomorrow morning by 4 am. I know... weird timing but apparently we have to leave early if we want to skip the traffic and get going and reach my home town by afternoon. Last time we ended up being stuck in traffic and ended up reaching my home town around 2 am at night! Oh that was fun... not really. Therefore we are starting early and we hope to not make too many stops.
Well that's in the future. I want to talk about the past. Has anyone every tried frying a frozen egg?? I bet not. It is the weirdest strangest thing in the world! I am not kidding!!! Ok so our freezer is a bum and everything we put in basically becomes ice. So... because it becomes cold some of the eggs in our fridge cracked and the yoke and such froze!! It was the weirdest thing ever! Anywhos... so we ended up peeling the eggshell from the eggs and then plopped it on the pan to fry. It took a while but then it ended up melting and frying and it tasted pretty good too! :D
Anyways. I don't think I will be able to post during the time I am gone. Either I'll return by the 29th-30th Dec. or by the 3rd-4th of Jan. If I do have anything interesting happen to me I'll write it down and the post it when I get back . Well then ta-ta.
P.S. - I HAVE A CAMERA!!!!!!!!! YAYNESS!!! AND if I get good pictures I might put them on here. Oh... I think I am hyper. I ist eating ice-cream.... :P
December 22, 2010
December 13, 2010
No longer than 24 hours
I've barely been here longer than 24 hours and I'm already wishing to be back at school. Being here is so annoying!! Do you have any idea how loud it gets when there are guests at home, especially when they intentionally talk loudly. I SWEAR! Sometimes, I want to run my father through with a sword. Sometimes he drags me out in front of guests to tell them "Oh ya, she is going to be a scientist or an engineer, blah blah blah.... That's my daughter's plan for the years to come." WAIT WHAT?!?! That was supposed to be my plan? Opps. I thought that was just YOUR WAY OF TRYING TO LIVE THROUGH ME BECAUSE YOU COULDN'T BE THAT WHEN YOU WERE GROWING UP! Grrr..... Sorry but I don't want to do what you want. It's MY LIFE and I want to do what I want to do.... but I can't say that to him otherwise my head gets chopped off. Do you have any clue how annoying it is to live with a filter over every action, sound, word that comes out of you even when you sleep because you don't want to die by his hands? Trust me, I hate it!
My mom's been great too. "Hey, did your skin get darker? Why the heck did you do that?" As if I can change my skin color whenever I want to just to please her. Grr... Or she'll say stuff like, "Your hair looks funny. You're eating too much." WELL if you want me to eat less then DON'T MAKE THAT MUCH FOOD AND PUT IT ON MY PLATE WOMAN! Grrr...
I can't stand my sisters at times to. Usually I can be content with Prithu but yea... this vacation it's getting harder to like Ashu and keep my self from beating her to death. Their voices, especially Ashita's, in an Indian accent kills my ears and makes me cringe. They slip into that accent so easily. One second it's English, then it's English with an Indian accent, then it's oriya and then it's hindi and then so on and so forth. I CAN'T STAND IT SOMETIMES!! I can't stand it when they scream all the time too!! I have had a constant headache!! It is so much easier to get sick at home too since I am under constant stress and usually am trying to keep myself from exploding! I try to write it out but my parents try to stop me from doing that. Nowadays I can't wait for the sound of the engine to fade away letting me know that they left!
Oh ya! I repel technology too! WTF! Nothing works around me except for my CD player and that things is ancient. Grrr.... My mom doesn't use her Vaio laptop and could lend it to me since I would actually put all that space and everything else to good use but NOOOOO! Oh ya. My dad finally got my external CD drive for my laptop for me. At least he says he does. Oh yea, the good part.... I can't take it to school because he doesn't want me to lose it. WELL WHAT THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH IT THEN?!?!?! I don't have any use for it at home! My netbook with the little space it has is dying while my hard drive is hardly any use!
I want to go back to school and go live with my big brother for the rest of the vacation, even though I know I can't. I feel like crying lots cuz I'm so mad and because I'm so trapped here. It's prison, HELL! The flying, free feeling I had on the plane before I got here seems so far away even though it was only yesterday. I feel weighed down to the ground and like giving up but I'm going to do my hardest not to yet. I miss people and wish I was with people who actually care about me and let me be myself and not some robot who is on display for their pride...
My mom's been great too. "Hey, did your skin get darker? Why the heck did you do that?" As if I can change my skin color whenever I want to just to please her. Grr... Or she'll say stuff like, "Your hair looks funny. You're eating too much." WELL if you want me to eat less then DON'T MAKE THAT MUCH FOOD AND PUT IT ON MY PLATE WOMAN! Grrr...
I can't stand my sisters at times to. Usually I can be content with Prithu but yea... this vacation it's getting harder to like Ashu and keep my self from beating her to death. Their voices, especially Ashita's, in an Indian accent kills my ears and makes me cringe. They slip into that accent so easily. One second it's English, then it's English with an Indian accent, then it's oriya and then it's hindi and then so on and so forth. I CAN'T STAND IT SOMETIMES!! I can't stand it when they scream all the time too!! I have had a constant headache!! It is so much easier to get sick at home too since I am under constant stress and usually am trying to keep myself from exploding! I try to write it out but my parents try to stop me from doing that. Nowadays I can't wait for the sound of the engine to fade away letting me know that they left!
Oh ya! I repel technology too! WTF! Nothing works around me except for my CD player and that things is ancient. Grrr.... My mom doesn't use her Vaio laptop and could lend it to me since I would actually put all that space and everything else to good use but NOOOOO! Oh ya. My dad finally got my external CD drive for my laptop for me. At least he says he does. Oh yea, the good part.... I can't take it to school because he doesn't want me to lose it. WELL WHAT THE HECK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH IT THEN?!?!?! I don't have any use for it at home! My netbook with the little space it has is dying while my hard drive is hardly any use!
I want to go back to school and go live with my big brother for the rest of the vacation, even though I know I can't. I feel like crying lots cuz I'm so mad and because I'm so trapped here. It's prison, HELL! The flying, free feeling I had on the plane before I got here seems so far away even though it was only yesterday. I feel weighed down to the ground and like giving up but I'm going to do my hardest not to yet. I miss people and wish I was with people who actually care about me and let me be myself and not some robot who is on display for their pride...
December 11, 2010
At my Dada's house
OH MY GOSH! The entire trip I was asleep. I mean like really sound asleep. The second the bus pulled out of Woodstock I fell asleep. Before that I got walked up to the buses by Dipika and Wolfy. After I put my stuff on the bus I came out and hung out with them. It was coldish but I thought it would get warmer.... Anywho soon we had to go so I said bye to Hopkins and Wolfy and got onto the bus and sat next to Apa. The bus ride was surprisingly COLD! I mean really cold! I felt like I was going to freeze and die. Finally we got to Dehradun and we had to change buses.
Once we got onto the the next bus I ended up pulling my arms out of the sleeves in my sweater and just kind of huddled and went to sleep. Thankfully it got warmer but I continued to stay that way to keep warm. I didn't even realize that it was going to get that cold! Seriously... freezing! We got packed breakfasts but I didn't touch anything except for the chips. Thankfully we got to the place where we eat lunch and me and Apa raced to the bathroom. After that we headed to eat lunch which was vegetarian and wasn't all that good except for maybe the Nan. So after that me and Apa went inside and got other food, which was non-veg and good. Some reason Apa was amazed at the amount that I was eating even though it was less than what I usually have.
After we left from there we headed for Delhi and I managed to fall asleep again against the window... I am so sure that I have a bruise from that now. Anywho I kept waking up whenever a loud truck went by and I kept getting a little mad but in the end I managed to ignore it and went back to sleep. When we reached Delhi I called my Dada and he said that he would come pick me up from the Hotel. The hotel got crowded quickly with the presence of Woodstock students. I found my dada and he took my little suitcase and told me to hurry but and to go, but I reminded him that I had another suitcase and that he had to come back and sign me out. He said ok and left while I looked for my suitcase. During that time he kept calling and asking me to hurry.... AIG! I was hurrying! It's kind of hard finding your stuff while everyone else is looking for theirs and throwing luggage left and right!
Anywho I managed to find it and then called my dada and was like you have to come sign me out.... it took him a while to understand what the heck I meant. In the end I managed to drag him back in and go sign me out while I went to get my ticket and other documents that I would need for the flight. Even during that time I got three calls from my mom and a bunch from my dada and a bunch from other people! I swear it was really annoying. I was like "meh" and Ms. Sabrina heard and was all like you shouldn't complain and I wanted to tell her to shush up but I decided against it.
I managed to get my stuff in the end and then attempted to get to the exit. However I almost forgot to say bye to other people. They saw me leaving and literally jumped on me. Well it was meant lovingly but it was kind of hard to move. First it was Malhar who was like I'll miss you and I managed to say bye to her and get her to give Ysolt some hugs from my side. Next was Ziri but she was just confuzzeled about rooms and such but we managed to clear that. Next was Apa and her cousin. Finally I was heading out when from behind me I hear this wailing kind of noise as Jeena attacked. She hugged me from behind and asked me not to go. I felt so bad leaving cuz she was like, "I'll miss. I don't want to go home. You should stay with me and run away with me and my brother so we all don't have to go home." I almost started crying but I told her that I would be on skype and not to fret.
I managed to get to my dada and we left. We got to where they stay and guess what... I GOT ATTACKED BY LITTLE KIDS! I'm not kidding.... they were like, "who are you? What are you doing here?" and so on and so forth. See my dada and his family help run this kids orphanage thing. But the kids were really sweet too and tried to take my bags up for me which I tried to refuse but they helped anyways. In the end I managed to get up to my dada's house and even there I was interogated about where I was from, my accent and stuff like that.
Now, I ist waiting for food. I can smell it... I ist hungry... but I have to wait a bit. One of my dad's friends showed up to say hi so I have to go now. Until later!! :P
Once we got onto the the next bus I ended up pulling my arms out of the sleeves in my sweater and just kind of huddled and went to sleep. Thankfully it got warmer but I continued to stay that way to keep warm. I didn't even realize that it was going to get that cold! Seriously... freezing! We got packed breakfasts but I didn't touch anything except for the chips. Thankfully we got to the place where we eat lunch and me and Apa raced to the bathroom. After that we headed to eat lunch which was vegetarian and wasn't all that good except for maybe the Nan. So after that me and Apa went inside and got other food, which was non-veg and good. Some reason Apa was amazed at the amount that I was eating even though it was less than what I usually have.
After we left from there we headed for Delhi and I managed to fall asleep again against the window... I am so sure that I have a bruise from that now. Anywho I kept waking up whenever a loud truck went by and I kept getting a little mad but in the end I managed to ignore it and went back to sleep. When we reached Delhi I called my Dada and he said that he would come pick me up from the Hotel. The hotel got crowded quickly with the presence of Woodstock students. I found my dada and he took my little suitcase and told me to hurry but and to go, but I reminded him that I had another suitcase and that he had to come back and sign me out. He said ok and left while I looked for my suitcase. During that time he kept calling and asking me to hurry.... AIG! I was hurrying! It's kind of hard finding your stuff while everyone else is looking for theirs and throwing luggage left and right!
Anywho I managed to find it and then called my dada and was like you have to come sign me out.... it took him a while to understand what the heck I meant. In the end I managed to drag him back in and go sign me out while I went to get my ticket and other documents that I would need for the flight. Even during that time I got three calls from my mom and a bunch from my dada and a bunch from other people! I swear it was really annoying. I was like "meh" and Ms. Sabrina heard and was all like you shouldn't complain and I wanted to tell her to shush up but I decided against it.
I managed to get my stuff in the end and then attempted to get to the exit. However I almost forgot to say bye to other people. They saw me leaving and literally jumped on me. Well it was meant lovingly but it was kind of hard to move. First it was Malhar who was like I'll miss you and I managed to say bye to her and get her to give Ysolt some hugs from my side. Next was Ziri but she was just confuzzeled about rooms and such but we managed to clear that. Next was Apa and her cousin. Finally I was heading out when from behind me I hear this wailing kind of noise as Jeena attacked. She hugged me from behind and asked me not to go. I felt so bad leaving cuz she was like, "I'll miss. I don't want to go home. You should stay with me and run away with me and my brother so we all don't have to go home." I almost started crying but I told her that I would be on skype and not to fret.
I managed to get to my dada and we left. We got to where they stay and guess what... I GOT ATTACKED BY LITTLE KIDS! I'm not kidding.... they were like, "who are you? What are you doing here?" and so on and so forth. See my dada and his family help run this kids orphanage thing. But the kids were really sweet too and tried to take my bags up for me which I tried to refuse but they helped anyways. In the end I managed to get up to my dada's house and even there I was interogated about where I was from, my accent and stuff like that.
Now, I ist waiting for food. I can smell it... I ist hungry... but I have to wait a bit. One of my dad's friends showed up to say hi so I have to go now. Until later!! :P
November 17, 2010
Time and Loss
Wow it's been ages since I wrote a post. I've been so busy with school and life in general. As time goes on the shorter time I have with people here at school. For example my friends in the Senior year will soon leave. It wasn't too long ago when I first met them and now it won't be too long before they will graduate. I know for sure that Dipika is going to end up crying at Graduation. She cries tonz and because of that I'm going to end up crying buckets too... It's going to be so strange coming back after that, there will be no grade above me and my grade is going to be the oldest one. That's kind of scary considering how my grade is acting right now with all the new kids. I really liked it before when it actually tried to do it's best and stuff. I really miss the Swansons, Mrs. Endo and Mr. Geddes who I believe kept our grade going.
However that's stuff is in the past and in the far, well I hope far cuz I don't want it to come yet but it's probably closer than I think, future. The nearer future is Christmas Break. The semester sure went fast, I didn't even think that it was that long. Christmas is coming and yesterday I made my first paper snowflake. I will keep making more... I intend to make my room, or at least my side, wintery... I really want to play Angel and Mortal. I really hope that we can convince our class govs into letting us play among our grade at least. I love playing that game...
The only bad part about the break is that I'm going home. Maybe it won't be too bad... I hope I'll get to see my baby cousin brother. He's so adorable and is growing up pretty fast too. When I get back however, it'll be the last semester I spend with my friends in Senior year before they leave... that's kind of depressing...
You might be wondering why I am being depressing today. Well that's because today has been depressing. I'm sick, coughing, sneezing, have a runny nose, look like I've been crying, have a headache and can't wait for the weekend... Well anywho I am off to bed. Goodnight!
P.S. - I think Aszul is well on it's way out the door.
However that's stuff is in the past and in the far, well I hope far cuz I don't want it to come yet but it's probably closer than I think, future. The nearer future is Christmas Break. The semester sure went fast, I didn't even think that it was that long. Christmas is coming and yesterday I made my first paper snowflake. I will keep making more... I intend to make my room, or at least my side, wintery... I really want to play Angel and Mortal. I really hope that we can convince our class govs into letting us play among our grade at least. I love playing that game...
The only bad part about the break is that I'm going home. Maybe it won't be too bad... I hope I'll get to see my baby cousin brother. He's so adorable and is growing up pretty fast too. When I get back however, it'll be the last semester I spend with my friends in Senior year before they leave... that's kind of depressing...
You might be wondering why I am being depressing today. Well that's because today has been depressing. I'm sick, coughing, sneezing, have a runny nose, look like I've been crying, have a headache and can't wait for the weekend... Well anywho I am off to bed. Goodnight!
P.S. - I think Aszul is well on it's way out the door.
October 7, 2010
QB Day 4
MONDAY!!! Finally after the shops being closed yesterday due to the Common Wealth Games, some shops opened which meant that me and dimpu could go shopping. Both her parents came along this time which was ok. Her dad drove and the rest of us went shopping. We got pjs and other things... but the other stuff was mainly not me.
After that we went a got me new shoes!!! Yay!!! I am happy with new shoes... Dimpu got new strappy shoes as well. Anywho after that we go more ice-cream and stuff. In the evening Dimpu, her dad and I went to KFC!!! It was nice and we got food... we came back and we ate it.. we also went to a Dollar store. Well... a Hundred Rupee Store which had pretty good stuff.
Yep... that was the end of Day 4 of QB.
After that we went a got me new shoes!!! Yay!!! I am happy with new shoes... Dimpu got new strappy shoes as well. Anywho after that we go more ice-cream and stuff. In the evening Dimpu, her dad and I went to KFC!!! It was nice and we got food... we came back and we ate it.. we also went to a Dollar store. Well... a Hundred Rupee Store which had pretty good stuff.
Yep... that was the end of Day 4 of QB.
QB Day 3
Woke up this morning with Dimpu yelling at me to wake up. When I finally got up... took a shower and then got ready for church. Interestingly getting to church took about five minutes. That wasn't the weirdest part but that comes later. During church we sang songs and me and dimpu helped out. Her mom played the guitar which was cool.
After church there was snacks!! Yay for food. After that me and Dimpu went out and there were bunnies on the lawn!!!! It was sooooo weird!!!! I nearly freaked out but Dimpu told me that it was ok and that they were pets. I was like okayyyy... weird....
Finally we went back to her house and we just hung out and stuff. Me and dimpu watched movies and stuff... and there wasn't much else except for the fact that I got tonz of sleep in the afternoon.
After church there was snacks!! Yay for food. After that me and Dimpu went out and there were bunnies on the lawn!!!! It was sooooo weird!!!! I nearly freaked out but Dimpu told me that it was ok and that they were pets. I was like okayyyy... weird....
Finally we went back to her house and we just hung out and stuff. Me and dimpu watched movies and stuff... and there wasn't much else except for the fact that I got tonz of sleep in the afternoon.
October 4, 2010
QB Day 2
Oh wow... today was fun. Me and dimpu woke up late. It was nice to sleep in and still have late breakfast, which was excellent. Anywho for the most of the day me and dimpu basically just watched movies and read stuff... well I read archie comics and books, dimpu was on her laptop, on the internet. It was fun. :p
Anywho in the evening... we both went out to do some shopping for stuff for her house since her parents were sick. It was an amazing trip for me cuz before I had never been allowed out like that without an adult supervisor. It was nice that dimpu's parents trusted us to do what was needed and come back, and that's what happened. We went and bought stuff and then found ice-cream!! It was a dream come true!! After getting a small sized bucket like thing of butterscotch ice-cream we went back to dimpu's house. It was a nice little adventure.
After that we had dinner and oh my gosh it was brilliant. I mean it wasn't much but i loved it!! It was really good. :P Then again I love food but I have to say that was some of the best food I had tasted.
Then after that it was off to bed since we had to be awake early and it was the end of Day 2 of QB.
P.S. - Seriously Aszul needs to stop bugging me...
Anywho in the evening... we both went out to do some shopping for stuff for her house since her parents were sick. It was an amazing trip for me cuz before I had never been allowed out like that without an adult supervisor. It was nice that dimpu's parents trusted us to do what was needed and come back, and that's what happened. We went and bought stuff and then found ice-cream!! It was a dream come true!! After getting a small sized bucket like thing of butterscotch ice-cream we went back to dimpu's house. It was a nice little adventure.
After that we had dinner and oh my gosh it was brilliant. I mean it wasn't much but i loved it!! It was really good. :P Then again I love food but I have to say that was some of the best food I had tasted.
Then after that it was off to bed since we had to be awake early and it was the end of Day 2 of QB.
P.S. - Seriously Aszul needs to stop bugging me...
QB Day 1
First day of QB was amazing!! Well not exactly in the beginning. I ended up telling someone something which I really hope does not ruin our friendship but I had my reasons behind it. I just hope that person understands my reasoning...
Anywho moving on! The trip down to Dehradun was not exactly what I'd call fun. Anna was asleep on Dimpu and she was asleep on me while I was asleep, leaning against the window. Well that was ok... the motion of the car as it went around turns on the other hand was baaaaadddd. In the end however we reached the train station and there were lots of WS people who were all headed the same way, Delhi.
The train ride was fun but we got to Delhi like late at night. Then we took a taxi to Dimpu's house. When we reached it was like 12 am. That turned out to be interesting cuz when we got to her house the sleepiness wore off. Me and dimpu ended up staying awake until like two o'clock eating very good chocolate cake and watching movies.
That is the end of Day 1 of QB.
P.S. - Aszul... hmmm don't know what else to say.
Anywho moving on! The trip down to Dehradun was not exactly what I'd call fun. Anna was asleep on Dimpu and she was asleep on me while I was asleep, leaning against the window. Well that was ok... the motion of the car as it went around turns on the other hand was baaaaadddd. In the end however we reached the train station and there were lots of WS people who were all headed the same way, Delhi.
The train ride was fun but we got to Delhi like late at night. Then we took a taxi to Dimpu's house. When we reached it was like 12 am. That turned out to be interesting cuz when we got to her house the sleepiness wore off. Me and dimpu ended up staying awake until like two o'clock eating very good chocolate cake and watching movies.
That is the end of Day 1 of QB.
P.S. - Aszul... hmmm don't know what else to say.
September 21, 2010
Very interesting...
Hmm... what you think? It's my sister's signature for this term at Hogwarts. :P It's ya... hmmm I don't know how to explain it. Anywho...
I have tonz to do. This school so does not let you rest even on weekends! It's so freaking busy. I feel like dying at times just so I can get some rest. Meh.... it's very annoying. Thankfully I got to go OB this last weekend. It was amazing cuz I got to eat non-school food!!! YAY! I got ice-cream too! I mean it was raining but still! It was brilliant cuz I got ice-cream... yay!! Not to mention I got to spend time with my big brother. Hehe.... he's pretty amazing. :P
We ended up playing Halo and watching Alex Rider. Hehe... I chose the movie for the guy :D. Ya I know... I'm weird. My brother thought I was weirdo too... oh well. I watched another movie just for the guy before. Ya unfortunately and fortunately it reminded me of the guy I like in real life. :P Anywho.... moving on.
My sister is taking part in the national spelling bee. I hope she does well. She doesn't study well but at least she is one amazing writer and speller, not to mention a great reader... like me :P. I love her. AH! My lill cousins are coming to my house. They are so adorable and lill.
Anywho... I should do homework... although I wish I could just forget about it, but I can't. Till later!!
P.S. - Plan Aszul is well underway. Bwahaha!
September 8, 2010
My insane day
Yep... I don't know what it is really. It's just me messing around. I tend to do that... :)
Aya... today was bad. I mean really bad. It was raining like super duper hard in the morning and so the dormparents told us that there was no school. Everyone was happy and we had a party/shouting thing in the corridors. About an hour later, after everyone had changed back into PJs and stuff the dormparents announce that students have 15 minutes to get up to school! Those that didn't would get DEMERITS! I got super mad because 15 minutes was not enough for my to have been able to climb to school, thanks to my lovely knee injury.
Anyways... by the time I got near school my knee was dead. In school I was upset with teachers and was stabbing an eraser with a compass.... let's just say that it wasn't that great cuz I ended up stabbing my finger with it. Meh.... thankfully though during Journalism my brother had his jacket and I got to steal it cuz I was feeling cold. I was literally soaked.
I finished reading the Bartimaeus Triology. The ending is so sad yet at the same time it was kind of perfect in the end. I'll miss him. :( Oh well.
Anywho I shall be off. My roommate is insane at the moment and says that I should sleep right now. Um... not happening... therefore I am going to go visit people. I am off! Till later!
P.S. Aszul has been following me around all day long. It's like it's there all the time. It's strange.
September 5, 2010
Still raining... still waiting
I don't really know what to say about this mood. I think the blue was just for contrast to the orange. Maybe I know what my mood is but don't want to say it.
I am so tired... I don't like rainy days. I just finished watching zombie movies by myself and I have to say I didn't flinch even once. I think I'm getting better at this.
I really did not like last night. And I certainly don't like this morning. I want a break of some sort but probably not gonna get it. I miss people and wish that things wouldn't change that fast. I also wish that somethings could change according to my wish but as I was reminded last night things like that don't happen.
My mind seems to wind in circles and go all around the point. I don't think that's good. I'm thinking too much I guess. I should call my parents but I can't be bothered to do so until later tonight since they might be busy.
I hate my dreams and wish they'd stop. I thought some of them had gone away but it seems like I was wrong. That's not good, besides I need sleep for the upcoming semester. I'm still feelings sick which sucks. It took me a while to be able to move around and get out of bed cuz I felt so bad. Anywho... I think I shall go eat something since I didn't eat anything last night or this morning. Till later...
P.S. - Aszul sucks. Can I please kick it out now? Apparently not... sadly looks like I'll have to wait or at least for now use other tactics that are similar.
September 3, 2010
Which way will the path turn?
I don't know what my mood is. It ranges from high to low and back and forth. It's strange and there are many reasons that cause it.
I happen to be really confuzzeled right now. I don't know how things will turn out and in a way it's scary. I want things to turn out right and good. There are so many things going on that I don't understand somethings. What if it turns out one way in my head and yet another in realitity. I don't know. I can always wish though can't I? If only those wishes would come true, one can only hope.
I'm scared of change but at the same time if it leads me to a better place then so be it. I want one change but I don't know it that change will ever happen or if I truly want it to happen. Maybe I think too much about it but still.
Oh ya. I also was in the Health Center today from like around lunch time till almost the end of the last period. Meh... I don't like being so sick that I can't move around and stuff. It was painful. It for a while dulled everything else except for the sharp pains.
Well hopefully it won't last too long. There are swimming competitions tomorrow and I will go watch my friends. I hope Merlins win! I will go and cheer... and try not to let my friends tease me too much. They are going to kill me. Meh.
Anywho I should go do something more productive. Till later!
P.S. - Aszul... Aszul. Why? I need to quickly figure things out before things get too weird.
September 1, 2010
Cross your fingers
More randomness and me being bored.
I probably should be finishing homework right now but I can't be bothered. I really don't want to do anything except maybe take a nap. Grrr.... I hate homework. Do you have any clue how much I hate math right now? Ya, a lot!
Today is the first of september which means that everyone can pinch and punch you while wishing you a first of the month kind of thing. Grr... why? Only after that happened once I remembered to cross my fingers and I did so for like the rest of the day. I still have to keep them crossed till midnight. Sometimes people continue it till the next day. So annoying.
Meh... I don't like homework. Maybe I'll just take it down to dorms and do it there. Oh ya, yesterday we had this whole talk about how we have new rules in dorms and everyone got scared. The dormparents like to scare us apparently. Meh... not cool. Anywho I should be heading down to dorms soonish.
Till later.
P.S. - Aszul is still really annoying and yet nice. How in the world does that make any sense?
August 31, 2010
More Fun with Paint.Net
Bwah haha! It's another one... I know it looks funny. I was bored. I do not have a life... why?! I am hungry. I wasnt food. You know... I really think that some people should try to be less conspicious (did I spell that right? I probably didn't... oh well) Anywho I am off... I am still hungry and craving ice-cream.
Ah! I art somewhat happy. I have one article on the front page of the Tiger. Well I used to have two until the killed the one I thought more important and kicked it out of the article. It had taken me forever to have written that. I was sad. At least I still have the one on the front page and on somewhere in the back. Oh well.
Anywho I am off... till later.
P.S. - Aszul is amazing... and yet so annoying at times.
August 22, 2010
New rules and frustration
Yep this is my mood for today... not happy as much just mostly frustrated and stuff like that. Only thing that I might cool in it is probably the part where is looks like a face that is trying to get out... it's weird and never was intended to be so but oh well.
It's quite amazing how you can not like someone and then go to liking them and then back to hating them. Meh.... it's not fun trust me. First everyone tells you ages ago that they were strange and mean so you decided not to like them. Then you get to know them better and you think they're not that bad to me. After a while again they do something to disappoint you making you dislike them. That happens to be the case of someone who can use their power over how I do things at this school.... I won't say their name but they definately do like doing things their way....
WHY are we not allowed to take a taxi up to church. It was so much easier when everyone went up in groups up to church... much better for my knee too. Today was a disaster and now I don't feel like going up to church just cuz I know everytime I try to I am going to kill my knee. I mean the walk up to school still takes care of that! Grrr.... Shelby and I reached just as the singing was about to finish. We started at like 8:30 from dorms geez took us about two freaking hours! I so do not want to do that again.
Homework is being a bum.... I have decided to take a break cuz that's what I do when homework is weilding weapons that might kill me. I have tonz to do and it's not funny. I want food... AH! I got ice-cream today... a bright spot in my day. Not to mention what may be the start of a new couple... they amuse me.
I am having issues with things. I don't like it. I mean everything is being all strange in a lot of aspects of my strange life. I want to do certain things but at the same time worry about the other people it might affect. I am going to go insane!
School besides the homeowork is okish. I miss old friends and wish they were here to help me sort out this weird mess and make me good food... if only. That seems to be my line at the moment... if only.
Meh I should probably do homework. Ya I should. Alright until later!
August 15, 2010
Back at School
As the days go on I start to feel settled into the pattern here at school. There are so many new people at school. At first it was crazy but I think I have gotten all the names of the girls memorized. My next goal is to get the names of the guys memorized. Thankfully I already know a few from classes and what not. I love Journalism class and Mr. Garcia's weirdness. He's a really funny teacher and is turning out to be not too bad. Mr. Miller gives a lot of homework but oh well... he's strange like that. :P My other classes are good and stuff.
It's raining outside and I feel happy. I can smell the damp earth and I LOVE that smell. I know, sometimes I can be a weirdo but I don't mind being one, as long as being weird means I can be special and different.
Today a bunch of the girls ended up watching Pirates of the Carreabian. Oh my gosh, I love Jack Sparrow and his attitude. A lot of the girls like Will better but I think I'll stick with Jack, he's crazy and funny and his accent is to die for at times... although Irish accents are probably just as good. :D Sadly... I couldn't finish the movie... my dad called...
Afterwards... let's just say that I went to sleep. I want food... I skipped check-in and dinner without realizing it so no one can blame me! HAHA! :P Ok I have to admit something, I am a bit hyper right now so I sound really crazy and all over the place so don't mind me... oh well. I want ice-cream.
Anywho... I got excused from cleaning my room too since I woke up like when quiet time was like almost done. I am kind of glad... I wasn't in the mood to move around fast and stuff things in random places... anywho Prashansa ditched me again tonight and I feel sad... Well at least before she went she talked with me. I think I may have had a fever for a while. Anywho she took my hard drive with her too so that I can't play a movie and fall alseep while listening to people talk, it's too quiet without her at times. I might just listen to regular music but I have no clue at the moment.
Oh! I have to post my new randomness that I have made on Paint.NET... it's not much but I was bored and stuff. Basically it's just colors and effects that I messed around with.
Afterwards, I was visited by people and I felt special. Hehe... I have new friends and I feel good. :P They're pretty cool too! :P
Hehe... I am a third year now!!! I am happy that I got promoted. It's so much fun. Sadly I can't go on all the time as I would rather have liked to... :( Oh well I do other stuff that I have to so it will be ok... but still!!! I am a third year!! I can be all happy and stuff. :P
Anywho I think I will be off! Till later.
It's raining outside and I feel happy. I can smell the damp earth and I LOVE that smell. I know, sometimes I can be a weirdo but I don't mind being one, as long as being weird means I can be special and different.
Today a bunch of the girls ended up watching Pirates of the Carreabian. Oh my gosh, I love Jack Sparrow and his attitude. A lot of the girls like Will better but I think I'll stick with Jack, he's crazy and funny and his accent is to die for at times... although Irish accents are probably just as good. :D Sadly... I couldn't finish the movie... my dad called...
Afterwards... let's just say that I went to sleep. I want food... I skipped check-in and dinner without realizing it so no one can blame me! HAHA! :P Ok I have to admit something, I am a bit hyper right now so I sound really crazy and all over the place so don't mind me... oh well. I want ice-cream.
Anywho... I got excused from cleaning my room too since I woke up like when quiet time was like almost done. I am kind of glad... I wasn't in the mood to move around fast and stuff things in random places... anywho Prashansa ditched me again tonight and I feel sad... Well at least before she went she talked with me. I think I may have had a fever for a while. Anywho she took my hard drive with her too so that I can't play a movie and fall alseep while listening to people talk, it's too quiet without her at times. I might just listen to regular music but I have no clue at the moment.
Oh! I have to post my new randomness that I have made on Paint.NET... it's not much but I was bored and stuff. Basically it's just colors and effects that I messed around with.
Afterwards, I was visited by people and I felt special. Hehe... I have new friends and I feel good. :P They're pretty cool too! :P
Hehe... I am a third year now!!! I am happy that I got promoted. It's so much fun. Sadly I can't go on all the time as I would rather have liked to... :( Oh well I do other stuff that I have to so it will be ok... but still!!! I am a third year!! I can be all happy and stuff. :P
Anywho I think I will be off! Till later.
July 28, 2010
What a day!
Tada! I made another one... just kind of randomly but ya! I don't know why I made it. I was just browsing Google images when all these random photos came up and I was like oooo they pretty! So ya I took them and combined them! Well actually the ship was a normal color before until I changed it! :P Hehe... it turned out pretty cool.
As for life... the little kid left. Her dad finished his work and their family left! It was all good! Although, even till the second she left the house she was still hitting me and pinching me. Geez... so not cool. AHHHHH!!!! I got new glasses.... meh. Not cool either since they are fancy. I mean you don't notice it right away but then they are! I didn't get to chose unfortunately... boo hoo... meh.
Hurray! I am going back to school soon!! I are happy for that. Sadly I was sick this afternoon. I could like hardly stand! I couldn't move and I thought that I was going to die. Thankfully I took medicine and fell asleep. Four hours later I wake up feeling somewhat better. It was not fun... but at least during that process I found a small photo album dedicated to me! Hehe.... I was very little... anywho. I am off to do other things. :P
July 23, 2010
Hehe... new Sig.
Hehe... it's my new Signature for the game... What do you think? I like it... it took a while... I mean it could have been better but oh well... the quote is by Rabindranath Tagore. It's a cool name. :D Anywho... I hope you like it...
Moving on to other things... well... I have made some new friends which I am really happy for. They help me with certain things... they're pretty cool. :D Not saying that I don't like me old friends who I love to pieces... just that it's nice to find new friends and that I can make new ones. :P Anywho I am off to bed!
July 20, 2010
My Sister's Selena Gomez Obsession
I know I know... another one? My sister was not happy that I got one for the game and so did my sister... She wanted one too! Thankfully she is not going to be playing the game and is just going to use it on Facebook and whatnot. Anywho... it is of Selena Gomez... not too great but I guess it works...
I just realized that my cousin brother's birthday is today... hmmm... I did talk to him about a minute ago... so it's all good! Hehe... I am in a hyper mood. :P hehe... I am laughing WAY too much... not to mention that I've been leaking because of that too! bah... anywhos... :P
Sister's Signature
Here is another one that I had made for my sister. It's her signature kind of thing for the game... since she is now playing it too... bah!
Did I mention that little kids are sometimes annoying and they are most definitely annoying when they try to kill you... meh! I am going to die here. Thankfully school will start again in a few days and I will leave this place for Good.... well not really only for the duration of school. Oh well...
July 19, 2010
My Obsession with Korean Drama
Hehe... I was bored and made this... not much but oh well! It is of the main character in Boys before/over Flowers, Geum Jan Di whose real name is Goo Hye Sun... :P Lately after working on my dad's website stuff for him I've been doing things on paint just randomly so this turned out to be one.... hehe I can already spot some mistakes on it that I might change I might not...
Anywho... life is going fine by my standards... nothing special. I can't wait for school to come back. Oh! But I did like get electrocuted today at physiotherapy. They put the current level WAY to high in the very beginning and my entire leg like died. Then at the end the person instead of turning it off turned it on the highest level again! For the next hour or so my leg still felt like it was being electrocuted! Oh well... it's better now... alright I have to go sleep now otherwise my mother will kill me and the internet... Goodnight! :P
July 16, 2010
Good and Bad
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I am happy! I got promoted.... well in a game... but still!!! :P I have tried like uber dooper hard for this game and I am now on the second main level. There are a lot of sub levels and levels that are really small before the first one but YAY! I have now been put in the second one. At first I thought that I wasn't gonna be able too but it worked! :D Sadly... they still have not named my little brother and I want them to soon! I don't like it being nameless and all... bah! Not to mention I have been attacked too many times in the past two days. There is this Nepali student Chandra whose family came to live here with him. They have a daughter named Purnima and boy does she know how to hit people. She would just randomly come up when I was doing something or the other and hit me and then run away. Not to mention she tries dragging me around and stuff... not that she can... when she can't she resorts to tickling me... not that it works since someone has tickled me way too much. Thankfully she does not know where I am ticklish though... Did I mention she likes throwing things my way too? Why is it that every time a student brings his family the little girls think it is funny to throw things at me? Grr.... meh.... bah! Oh well... I am off to do work and such... not to mention I have to go practice my piano for an hour... AND HAVE LUNCH! Lunch sounds a lot better than anything else right now... anywho.
July 14, 2010
MY LITTLE COUSIN BROTHER!!!!!!!!
AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have a new little cousin brother!!!! He is so super duper adorable!!! Not to mention that he is tiny! AHHH!!! I love the little thing. I went to my hometown just to visit him. When me and my aunt got to the hospital we entered the room and he was awake and crying... but when i got to hold him calmed down and went to sleep!!!! AH! I felt special!!! AH!! Sorry I am really excited. I think that today they will name him. I came back this morning.... from seeing him. He is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute! Although I was a little surprised when he decided to use my foot for a bathroom... Oh well.... other than that I had fun in Balangir. I hung out with my cousins and second cousins. It was fun... we all were around the same age so we talked and raided stores to eat food and whatnot. And since I was not going to take any chances I was driven around on the motorbike with my second cousin Lipu. He drives way too fast for my taste... and when he turns he likes to scare me to death but i had to endure it all for my knee... anyways... if more news comes up about my adorable cousin I will post it up!! :P
April 11, 2010
It's amazing what you can feel. Today when me and Dimpu went to Church we found it soooooooooooo amazing. We had come to church feelings to busy and stressed but we thought we might as well go. Anyways it started off like any normal service. Halfway through the worship part of it, the pastor started talking and everyone listened and there was time to think and be quiet and have your time. Both of us felt this like wind blow in through the room gentle at the same time comforting. It felt like it swirled around us like a cacoon. It started at our feet and spiraled upwards till it covered us completely. It was soooooo good. There was the calm that filled inside. It felt like this refreshing substance poured into my heart. When we both left we both felt better prepared for the next week. It was so amazing!
April 6, 2010
Aya... why are there couples everywhere?!?!? Seriously!! Most of my friends are like pairing up or patching up or something of the sort!! Not to mention the ring givingness.... meh WHY... WHY.... WHY???? What is so amazing about having a boyfriend or a girlfriend anyways?? It sucks!! It is not cool at all. I mean really come on you have to hangout with the other person a lot... um... and there are fights and misunderstanding and whatnots... Geez.... Not that I want any of my friends to break up or anything of the sort.... BUT hello!!!! seriously... is it possible to have a relationship and friends at the same time?? How in the world to married people handle it?!?! But on the brighter side... Ysolt's got into one of the colleges she applied to!!! YAY!!!! I am super duper happy for her.... BUT I'll miss her like oodles and noodles next semester but she needs to get out of this place so i'll have to let her go... At least I get to do her farewell speech for her.... although at the same time it's depressing... now no one will make me really good wai-wai or like make me really good pancakes. Way too many people are leaving this year.... it's gonna be lonely next year. Oh well... at least I'm not going anywhere till I graduate or I'd be in big trouble! Thank goodness for piano exams and bio. Anyways... till later!
April 3, 2010
I finally have a break!!!!! It's Quarter Break and I am off the roof. Yesterday we went to the pool and at first it was like super duper cold and everyone was like it's freezing. Then later I found it warmer than outside and was in the pool for about an hour and a half. Everyone else still found it cold so they all eventually left. I stayed and practiced on learning how to dive. Priya said that I was getting better so I wanna practice again. Last night we watched Alice in Wonderland... the new one and half way through my stone age family called. Let's just say that it wasn't the nicest conversation. Then today we went to Dehradun!!!! I went with Jeena and Kookie. I was very much amused as they went from store to store shopping and driving the store people crazy with the amount of stuff they tried on. Oo! Also we got sari each for Jeena and Kookie. We got the hugest discount ever! The silk ones they got were supposed to cost like 6,000 something each and we got them for 1,500 each. Huge difference!! Only reason... the girl working there had a Thai roommate when she was in boarding school and since Jeena and Kookie were Thai.... they were really really nice too!! Then we finally went to the BOOK STORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was in heaven once again!! Not to mention that I like a thousand ice-cream cones. I LOVED TODAY! Even when coming up to school I didn't puke!! I was all good!! Now I'm going to make pop-corn and maybe watch a movie when Dipika gets back!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! So Far I like today now. :) If anyone is up there please, please don't mess up today.... Anyways... Till later!
March 9, 2010
I'M HYPER!!!! AHHHHH!!!! This is so weird.... I haven't been this kind of happy hyper in like ages and stuff..... meh. Oh well!! Oh! We can keep our laptops on weekdays now and don't have to turn them in and stuff! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm Hyper!!!!!!! I think that I should do this stuff more often. It is very good for my health. OH! I nearly died in Math class today due to my brilliance of balance. I like was reaching over for a pen and then like fell sideways and almost off my chair and onto the ground/Uzir if he hadn't like caught my chair and put me back into place. I was kind of like you know hehehe.... I so did not do that.... (o_O). Then when going to lunch I like tripped on a wall and nearly fell.... but someone else caught me.... and then later on when no one was around I tripped on my shoe and almost fell but caught the railing and was like aya safe! Meh I could go on about my near accidents.... AHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Book fair is coming up!!!! I can't WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been like saving up for this for like ages and AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I love book fair!!! I want to get really good books for myself and my little "pillow" and "pipsqueak"! Oh and tomorrow I have to turn in a portfolio for Casaneth and stuff so I will have to depart now!
March 2, 2010
Alright... its official. I am going insane. There is way too much homework and way too much stuff to worry about. Not to mention that my knee is really killing me and that the right side of my body pains anytime I make a sudden movement. I think I slept funny or something like that. My parents are absolutely insane and I want a muting machine. Oo! I also want a pair of wings... I need to run away for a while and disappear and forget about this boggy world... even if it is for a while. Aya last night my nightmares were quite wonderful. I woke up thinking I was in prison or something.... not fun. My MP3 just killed itself again and thus I believe my laptop has mingled with my dying hard drive a little too much, which may result in it getting sick... Strangely its functioning perfectly fine except for the fact that its slow, cuz it's stuffed with school work and random poems and stuff, and that its sharing its wonderfulness to my other electronics... Oh joy for the electronics in my ward. Thank goodness I do not own an Ipod.... Hmmm... I may have to resort back to my C.D. Player (Yes I know... IT'S ANCIENT!) to get myself to sleep otherwise I may as well become nocturnal and sleep for about two hours a day... I really need a break... Hmmm.... I could always do random stuff.... Blah.... I have math homework that I must do.... Until later!
February 20, 2010
Empty Eyes
A random Story that I wrote for English... :
I stepped out of the car and stared at the house. Lightening raced through the air casting a strange eerie light on it. Its tall dark front loomed over us as my cat, Rohan named after my favorite book character, hurried back into the car huddled at the other end of the seat. The house moaned as the strong winds blew, nearly knocking me off my feet.
“This is where we’re moving?” I asked glaring at my parents.
“Lizzy honey, I know it looks a little strange but all the houses, in the country side of England, look like this in the storm and besides it has a lot of history that’s perfect for my first hand research and not to mention…” said my mom going on and on about thing she and my dad planned to do. I rolled my eyes and sighed. My parents are both Elizabethan Professors (that’s just one reason they named me Elizabeth) at a small college in which they’ve been teaching in for over 9 years.
We always traveled to accommodate their research needs and what my parents called “mini sabbaticals“. I’m 15 and we had already been to at least 12 countries in my knowledge, this would be the thirteenth one. It was only during vacations, though, that we went anywhere. We had house movers set up most things already that we took with us whenever we went on another sabbaticals All that was left to do was to head on in. I put my shoulder bag on, gently picked up Rohan and left my parents in their awe to go locate another new room.
Rohan snuggled against me as we walked through the hallway to find a light switch. Everything looked dim even after I had turned the lights on. Most of the rooms on the first floor, such as the rather large parlor and the private drawing room, looked dull. The only room that held any interest to me was the library. Its shelves reached the high ceiling and covered the entire wall, with the exception of the windows. A grand piano stood near one of the windows. Then I noticed a book underneath the piano.
I put Rohan down as I reached underneath the piano to retrieve the book. On its cover was the title ‘Wuthering Heights.’ I opened the book unable to control my excitement and found on the first page the words ‘Mary’s personal diary. Please do not touch.’ Even more peculiar was that the little diary was glued into the empty cover. Baffled I turned the page and started on the first faded diary entry.
Dear Diary,
This house is splendid! You have no clue how beautiful it is! I must go and explore more and thus this is a little short. Until later!
Mary
The next few diary entries contained about the same information. Mary wrote about secret nooks, her piano lessons, fights with her little brother, school and the book she was reading, ‘Wuthering Heights’ and its amazing brilliance. I could just about imagine her accent as she wrote these things down in earnest. The few entries after those were somewhat vague and panicky. They were completely opposite from what the first few were.
Dear Diary,
I keep getting this feeling that someone is watching me. During the night I hear sounds that I can’t distinguish. Sometimes when I can I fancy that a girl is calling my name softly like a whisper. It seems only starts at night. ‘Mary… Mary…’ I hate it.
Mary
Dear Diary,
I can hardly sleep… All I can think about during the day is the voice during the night. I can hardly pay attention during piano lesson or in school. I think last night the girl talked to me… ‘Mary… Mary… I’m coming… I’m coming.’ The house no longer holds discoveries; instead it contains secrets and horrors that haunt me.
Mary
I could hardly believe what I was reading. Everything seemed to grow bolder on the pages as I read. Whispers… night… watching me… sounds… girl… I’m coming… I hate it. My mind whirled around the words. I started to imagine that a girl stood a few feet away from the other side the piano. Her long black hair blew in front of her face covering everything except her mouth which formed a secretive, knowing, evil smile. She had a tattered, dirty nightdress on though her feet were bare. Her hand started reaching out toward me. In the back of my mind I could hear Rohan hissing and the wind howling louder than before. The girl started shuffling closer, her hair shifting from side to side as lightening lit up the room for a split second. Her lips started moving and I started to imagine that I heard her calling and talking.
“Mary… Lizzy… Mary… Lizzy… Lizzy…I‘m coming Lizzy. Silly Mary wrote everything down so that you‘d know all about me but that just makes everything more fun. I love games, but know this Lizzy I‘m coming sooner than you expect!”
“Elizabeth!” I jumped and the book fell onto the ground. I tore my eyes away from the girl and saw my mother standing in the door way. I looked back to where the girl was standing and to my surprise saw nothing. I blinked a few times and stared again. Rohan came closer and rubbed against my legs.
“Lizzy! Come on honey we haven’t got all day and we’ve got to go see your new room,” my mom said picking up a duffle bag from beside her. I picked up the book and Rohan and followed my mother but before leaving the room I gave it one last look. It may have been my imagination but I thought I could hear faint laughter as I turned away.
My room was quite spacious. All of my stuff had been set up according to the way I had planned it. I walked over to my bed, put my bag down and sat with my legs dangling off the side. The cream colored wallpaper looked faded and the shutters on the windows looked beyond ancient. My eyes wandered back down to the book in front of my. I shifted so that I sat cross-legged and picked up the diary. Finally curiosity got the better of me and I opened it.
Dear Diary,
I’ve now decided to hide you inside the cover of my favorite book ‘Wuthering Heights’ so that she may never find you. Last night I saw her eyes. She turned from the window and the moonlight struck her face. The wind blew and her hair moved revealing nothing but hallow sockets. She came to the bed and clutched my arm. Then with amazing force she dragged me off my bed and repeatedly hit my head against the window. When I woke up this morning my head had bruises on them and I told my parents that I fell off the bed knowing that they would object to the knowledge of ghosts. There was blood on the window sill and I tried to clean it as best I could but I could still see the stains. I hate my room now and hardly get any sleep. Even now I am having trouble keeping my eyes open. I have to go to school now.
Mary
That night after dinner I returned to my room I pulled the diary out of a drawer in the table next to my bed. I sat down cross legged and started to read more. Mary went on about how the ghost would torture her during the night and how in the mornings she had to lie, to her parents, about her many bruises and cuts. At times during the day she could still feel a hovering presence near her where ever she went. Mary went on to tell how she had no more friends who avoided her like she had the plague. Even her own parents seemed to whisper about her behind closed doors. With each day Mary lashed out at anything that came too near scared. She could no longer tell what was real and what was not. When I couldn’t bear to read anymore I closed the diary. Rohan had slinked into the room and hopped onto the bed and I was glad for a distraction.
When my clock struck three o’clock I suddenly woke up with no reason. The sounds from the night started to scare me. An owl started hooting right outside my window causing Rohan to wake up and hop into my lap. The house creaked on its own sending shivers down my spine. The moon wasn’t too bright so I could hardly see a foot ahead of me. Rohan’s eyes darted one here and there and settled on something in the dark. He started hissing and dug his claws into my leg. I slowly moved until I was in a sitting position and turned on the light. I nearly screamed but nothing came out of my mouth. At the foot of my bed the girl sat with face towards me and her hair pushed behind her ear. Her empty sockets stared right back at me and her lips were in that same evil smile.
“Lizzy… I told you I’d come,” the girl said cocking her head to the side obviously enjoying my reaction. I looked at her speechless my heart pounding.
“Since you know so much about me already I think that’s right that I finish my tale. I’m Reena. I lived here since I was born. My mom died in childbirth and my father got another wife. But you know she wasn’t very nice to me. She loved to torture me… I’m sure you’ve read some of them from poor Mary’s dairy. The one day out of ten years that I tried to take revenge on my stepmother was the day she hurt me the most. She beat me with a metal rod and knocked me unconscious. Then she tore my eyes out… my beautiful hazel eyes… the only thing that made me my mother’s. Then before she killed me she put a curse on me so that until I found enough eyes I would never be with my mother again. At first I hated roaming like a ghost until I found out that even without my eyes I can see. Now it’s my favorite game. Shall we play?” Reena asked after finishing her tale.
I shrank away as she reached her hands out. When she saw that I wasn’t going to come willingly she grew angry. She grabbed my ankle and started to pull. I grabbed onto the head of the bed and hung on. Then as quickly as it started she disappeared.
When I touched my ankle it was freezing. I cautiously looked over the side of the bed and saw nothing. I turned back the other way and found her empty sockets right next to me. I screamed but she clamped her hand over my mouth and started to laugh quietly. Rohan hissed and leaped at Reena landing on her back with his claws ready. Reena let go of me and reached around her to grab Rohan. I fell out of the bed and crawled to the door. Behind me Reena let out a shriek and threw Rohan against the wall. The she launched herself off the bed and grabbed my hair pulling me to my feet. I whimpered and grabbed her hands. With tremendous force she threw me against the wall. I lay there as she walked towards me.
“So the you really thought that you could fight me?” Reena asked with a sneer on her face. I tried to use my hands to prop myself up and she started to laugh again.
“Didn’t Mary teach you through her pathetic diary that I can’t be beat? Your eyes are the last ones I need. Then I can go where ever I want to. I will have your eyes. Yet it would be a pity to finish you off in one day,” she said with a sad smile on her face. Then her face light up and she disappeared through the wall. After a minute I crept to my bed and pulled myself onto it exhausted.
The next morning my head hurt and there was a small bump on the back of it. My back had bruises and my hands had cuts on them. I hid everything except for my hands. When my mother asked I told her that I fell into the rose bush. She gave me something for it and then both my parents retreated to their study. I ran up grabbed the diary from my room and ran into the yard. I sat down on the wide swing and opened the diary. I once more went through the dairy. All that Mary described gave me the shivers. By the time it was almost noon I knew I couldn’t stay one more night in the house and I definitely could not take anymore of Reena’s torture.
I walked into the barn and climbed into the loft. From there I climbed to the roof and looked down at the house. I stepped back dizzy. Next to me I could feel something and I knew that it was her. In the sunlight she didn’t have much power and I knew that she could do almost nothing except for little feeble attempts. I pushed her aside, closed my eyes and jumped. As I feel I could hear a scream from the house and one from above me.
When I opened my eyes I stood up slowly and looked down. My face looked so peaceful. I walked through the barn wall and climbed up the ladder and onto the roof.
“Looking for me?” I asked as Reena turned around. She shrieked and ran at me. What she didn’t know was that good was stronger than evil. I pushed her down and jumped after her and landed next to her. I punched her and pulled her hair. When I was done she lay there unconscious but not dead. To kill her I would have to do more than that but I would have to learn.
There was a wail behind me and I saw my mother crying at my dead body. I tried to touch her but my hands slipped through her and she shuddered. Then I saw Rohan walk over hesitantly and start rubbing against me. I felt a mixture of sadness but at the same time I felt like I did something right. I turned away and went to go sit down on the swing. I looked at the place where I had left Reena and saw it empty. I turned back and I picked up the dairy. Then I saw another book underneath it. On the cover was my favorite book, Dragon Prince by Melanie Rawn, and on the inside were the words ‘Lizzy’s personal diary. Please do not touch.’ It was then that I realized what I was meant to do. I sighed and picked up the diaries and walked into the house to wait for the next victim of Reena.
I stepped out of the car and stared at the house. Lightening raced through the air casting a strange eerie light on it. Its tall dark front loomed over us as my cat, Rohan named after my favorite book character, hurried back into the car huddled at the other end of the seat. The house moaned as the strong winds blew, nearly knocking me off my feet.
“This is where we’re moving?” I asked glaring at my parents.
“Lizzy honey, I know it looks a little strange but all the houses, in the country side of England, look like this in the storm and besides it has a lot of history that’s perfect for my first hand research and not to mention…” said my mom going on and on about thing she and my dad planned to do. I rolled my eyes and sighed. My parents are both Elizabethan Professors (that’s just one reason they named me Elizabeth) at a small college in which they’ve been teaching in for over 9 years.
We always traveled to accommodate their research needs and what my parents called “mini sabbaticals“. I’m 15 and we had already been to at least 12 countries in my knowledge, this would be the thirteenth one. It was only during vacations, though, that we went anywhere. We had house movers set up most things already that we took with us whenever we went on another sabbaticals All that was left to do was to head on in. I put my shoulder bag on, gently picked up Rohan and left my parents in their awe to go locate another new room.
Rohan snuggled against me as we walked through the hallway to find a light switch. Everything looked dim even after I had turned the lights on. Most of the rooms on the first floor, such as the rather large parlor and the private drawing room, looked dull. The only room that held any interest to me was the library. Its shelves reached the high ceiling and covered the entire wall, with the exception of the windows. A grand piano stood near one of the windows. Then I noticed a book underneath the piano.
I put Rohan down as I reached underneath the piano to retrieve the book. On its cover was the title ‘Wuthering Heights.’ I opened the book unable to control my excitement and found on the first page the words ‘Mary’s personal diary. Please do not touch.’ Even more peculiar was that the little diary was glued into the empty cover. Baffled I turned the page and started on the first faded diary entry.
Dear Diary,
This house is splendid! You have no clue how beautiful it is! I must go and explore more and thus this is a little short. Until later!
Mary
The next few diary entries contained about the same information. Mary wrote about secret nooks, her piano lessons, fights with her little brother, school and the book she was reading, ‘Wuthering Heights’ and its amazing brilliance. I could just about imagine her accent as she wrote these things down in earnest. The few entries after those were somewhat vague and panicky. They were completely opposite from what the first few were.
Dear Diary,
I keep getting this feeling that someone is watching me. During the night I hear sounds that I can’t distinguish. Sometimes when I can I fancy that a girl is calling my name softly like a whisper. It seems only starts at night. ‘Mary… Mary…’ I hate it.
Mary
Dear Diary,
I can hardly sleep… All I can think about during the day is the voice during the night. I can hardly pay attention during piano lesson or in school. I think last night the girl talked to me… ‘Mary… Mary… I’m coming… I’m coming.’ The house no longer holds discoveries; instead it contains secrets and horrors that haunt me.
Mary
I could hardly believe what I was reading. Everything seemed to grow bolder on the pages as I read. Whispers… night… watching me… sounds… girl… I’m coming… I hate it. My mind whirled around the words. I started to imagine that a girl stood a few feet away from the other side the piano. Her long black hair blew in front of her face covering everything except her mouth which formed a secretive, knowing, evil smile. She had a tattered, dirty nightdress on though her feet were bare. Her hand started reaching out toward me. In the back of my mind I could hear Rohan hissing and the wind howling louder than before. The girl started shuffling closer, her hair shifting from side to side as lightening lit up the room for a split second. Her lips started moving and I started to imagine that I heard her calling and talking.
“Mary… Lizzy… Mary… Lizzy… Lizzy…I‘m coming Lizzy. Silly Mary wrote everything down so that you‘d know all about me but that just makes everything more fun. I love games, but know this Lizzy I‘m coming sooner than you expect!”
“Elizabeth!” I jumped and the book fell onto the ground. I tore my eyes away from the girl and saw my mother standing in the door way. I looked back to where the girl was standing and to my surprise saw nothing. I blinked a few times and stared again. Rohan came closer and rubbed against my legs.
“Lizzy! Come on honey we haven’t got all day and we’ve got to go see your new room,” my mom said picking up a duffle bag from beside her. I picked up the book and Rohan and followed my mother but before leaving the room I gave it one last look. It may have been my imagination but I thought I could hear faint laughter as I turned away.
My room was quite spacious. All of my stuff had been set up according to the way I had planned it. I walked over to my bed, put my bag down and sat with my legs dangling off the side. The cream colored wallpaper looked faded and the shutters on the windows looked beyond ancient. My eyes wandered back down to the book in front of my. I shifted so that I sat cross-legged and picked up the diary. Finally curiosity got the better of me and I opened it.
Dear Diary,
I’ve now decided to hide you inside the cover of my favorite book ‘Wuthering Heights’ so that she may never find you. Last night I saw her eyes. She turned from the window and the moonlight struck her face. The wind blew and her hair moved revealing nothing but hallow sockets. She came to the bed and clutched my arm. Then with amazing force she dragged me off my bed and repeatedly hit my head against the window. When I woke up this morning my head had bruises on them and I told my parents that I fell off the bed knowing that they would object to the knowledge of ghosts. There was blood on the window sill and I tried to clean it as best I could but I could still see the stains. I hate my room now and hardly get any sleep. Even now I am having trouble keeping my eyes open. I have to go to school now.
Mary
That night after dinner I returned to my room I pulled the diary out of a drawer in the table next to my bed. I sat down cross legged and started to read more. Mary went on about how the ghost would torture her during the night and how in the mornings she had to lie, to her parents, about her many bruises and cuts. At times during the day she could still feel a hovering presence near her where ever she went. Mary went on to tell how she had no more friends who avoided her like she had the plague. Even her own parents seemed to whisper about her behind closed doors. With each day Mary lashed out at anything that came too near scared. She could no longer tell what was real and what was not. When I couldn’t bear to read anymore I closed the diary. Rohan had slinked into the room and hopped onto the bed and I was glad for a distraction.
When my clock struck three o’clock I suddenly woke up with no reason. The sounds from the night started to scare me. An owl started hooting right outside my window causing Rohan to wake up and hop into my lap. The house creaked on its own sending shivers down my spine. The moon wasn’t too bright so I could hardly see a foot ahead of me. Rohan’s eyes darted one here and there and settled on something in the dark. He started hissing and dug his claws into my leg. I slowly moved until I was in a sitting position and turned on the light. I nearly screamed but nothing came out of my mouth. At the foot of my bed the girl sat with face towards me and her hair pushed behind her ear. Her empty sockets stared right back at me and her lips were in that same evil smile.
“Lizzy… I told you I’d come,” the girl said cocking her head to the side obviously enjoying my reaction. I looked at her speechless my heart pounding.
“Since you know so much about me already I think that’s right that I finish my tale. I’m Reena. I lived here since I was born. My mom died in childbirth and my father got another wife. But you know she wasn’t very nice to me. She loved to torture me… I’m sure you’ve read some of them from poor Mary’s dairy. The one day out of ten years that I tried to take revenge on my stepmother was the day she hurt me the most. She beat me with a metal rod and knocked me unconscious. Then she tore my eyes out… my beautiful hazel eyes… the only thing that made me my mother’s. Then before she killed me she put a curse on me so that until I found enough eyes I would never be with my mother again. At first I hated roaming like a ghost until I found out that even without my eyes I can see. Now it’s my favorite game. Shall we play?” Reena asked after finishing her tale.
I shrank away as she reached her hands out. When she saw that I wasn’t going to come willingly she grew angry. She grabbed my ankle and started to pull. I grabbed onto the head of the bed and hung on. Then as quickly as it started she disappeared.
When I touched my ankle it was freezing. I cautiously looked over the side of the bed and saw nothing. I turned back the other way and found her empty sockets right next to me. I screamed but she clamped her hand over my mouth and started to laugh quietly. Rohan hissed and leaped at Reena landing on her back with his claws ready. Reena let go of me and reached around her to grab Rohan. I fell out of the bed and crawled to the door. Behind me Reena let out a shriek and threw Rohan against the wall. The she launched herself off the bed and grabbed my hair pulling me to my feet. I whimpered and grabbed her hands. With tremendous force she threw me against the wall. I lay there as she walked towards me.
“So the you really thought that you could fight me?” Reena asked with a sneer on her face. I tried to use my hands to prop myself up and she started to laugh again.
“Didn’t Mary teach you through her pathetic diary that I can’t be beat? Your eyes are the last ones I need. Then I can go where ever I want to. I will have your eyes. Yet it would be a pity to finish you off in one day,” she said with a sad smile on her face. Then her face light up and she disappeared through the wall. After a minute I crept to my bed and pulled myself onto it exhausted.
The next morning my head hurt and there was a small bump on the back of it. My back had bruises and my hands had cuts on them. I hid everything except for my hands. When my mother asked I told her that I fell into the rose bush. She gave me something for it and then both my parents retreated to their study. I ran up grabbed the diary from my room and ran into the yard. I sat down on the wide swing and opened the diary. I once more went through the dairy. All that Mary described gave me the shivers. By the time it was almost noon I knew I couldn’t stay one more night in the house and I definitely could not take anymore of Reena’s torture.
I walked into the barn and climbed into the loft. From there I climbed to the roof and looked down at the house. I stepped back dizzy. Next to me I could feel something and I knew that it was her. In the sunlight she didn’t have much power and I knew that she could do almost nothing except for little feeble attempts. I pushed her aside, closed my eyes and jumped. As I feel I could hear a scream from the house and one from above me.
When I opened my eyes I stood up slowly and looked down. My face looked so peaceful. I walked through the barn wall and climbed up the ladder and onto the roof.
“Looking for me?” I asked as Reena turned around. She shrieked and ran at me. What she didn’t know was that good was stronger than evil. I pushed her down and jumped after her and landed next to her. I punched her and pulled her hair. When I was done she lay there unconscious but not dead. To kill her I would have to do more than that but I would have to learn.
There was a wail behind me and I saw my mother crying at my dead body. I tried to touch her but my hands slipped through her and she shuddered. Then I saw Rohan walk over hesitantly and start rubbing against me. I felt a mixture of sadness but at the same time I felt like I did something right. I turned away and went to go sit down on the swing. I looked at the place where I had left Reena and saw it empty. I turned back and I picked up the dairy. Then I saw another book underneath it. On the cover was my favorite book, Dragon Prince by Melanie Rawn, and on the inside were the words ‘Lizzy’s personal diary. Please do not touch.’ It was then that I realized what I was meant to do. I sighed and picked up the diaries and walked into the house to wait for the next victim of Reena.
February 15, 2010
Its interesting how things seem to go so fast as the days go by. I've been in school for only about a week now and it seems as though time is flying past me. I feel lost at times but mostly confused. I get scared so randomly and it bugs me like anything. I don't know how to talk to people most of the time and feel like isolating myself. I feel scared to talk with anyone about it because of the fact that I expose myself too much. I hate the fact that I close up when people get too close and I hate seeing people react to it. I feel bad but can't seem to be able to control the reaction. I don't know... I reject people because of exposure... stupid me... I hope as the days go by I'll like be able to relax more and fall back into the normal school pattern and forget or at least send the throughts of vacation to the back of my mind.... Still that's hard to do considering the fact that my parents call like everyday expecting a full day's report and that's already enough. I really hope things get better..... Until then i'll just have to sit tight.... a bit annoying but nothing much that I can do...
January 31, 2010
Confused
My mind is in muddled mass
It gets worse as the days pass
I live in silence not knowing what to say
Only speaking when needed during the day
Constantly tears prick the edges of my eyes
My head bows as I walk to try and hide
Concerned questions are constantly asked
I give a small smile and put on an act
At times I feel as though there are two of me
Fighting with each other to look out and see
Each wants a chance to conduct away
With them swapping, my mood will sway
Neither of them gets very long to stay
I wish that I could find the middle way
Somehow help them come to a compromise
Not waste away as time flies
It gets worse as the days pass
I live in silence not knowing what to say
Only speaking when needed during the day
Constantly tears prick the edges of my eyes
My head bows as I walk to try and hide
Concerned questions are constantly asked
I give a small smile and put on an act
At times I feel as though there are two of me
Fighting with each other to look out and see
Each wants a chance to conduct away
With them swapping, my mood will sway
Neither of them gets very long to stay
I wish that I could find the middle way
Somehow help them come to a compromise
Not waste away as time flies
Nightmare during the Day
I am forcefully jerked out of my sleep
Still it is not the regular alarm beep
My pillow is jerked out from under me
I try to grab it still unable to see
Then down come your fists onto my back
Each blow comes down with a crack
My back becomes bruised and sore
I cry as you do more and more
The more I cry the stronger the blows
As it continues I start to leak including my nose
The bed becomes wet with tears
No longer a comfort, but a places of fears
I long and wish to curl up and hide
But with this plan you do not abide
You take away thing precious to me
They are for blackmail and bribery
Can’t you see that I’m scared
I only respond better if you cared
But now I see the truth in front of me
The nightmare is same outside and in my dream
Still it is not the regular alarm beep
My pillow is jerked out from under me
I try to grab it still unable to see
Then down come your fists onto my back
Each blow comes down with a crack
My back becomes bruised and sore
I cry as you do more and more
The more I cry the stronger the blows
As it continues I start to leak including my nose
The bed becomes wet with tears
No longer a comfort, but a places of fears
I long and wish to curl up and hide
But with this plan you do not abide
You take away thing precious to me
They are for blackmail and bribery
Can’t you see that I’m scared
I only respond better if you cared
But now I see the truth in front of me
The nightmare is same outside and in my dream
My Big Brother
I was lost and wandering alone
My steps unsure into the unknown
Dark mist clouded my mind
My feet stumbled as if I was blind
Then there was a tap on my shoulder
Soft at first and then bolder
I spun around terrified and saw him there
His eyes turned soft with care
He tilted his head to the right
Confused at my fright
He frowned as he gazed
Until I calmed and my cheeks were ablaze
At this he smiled
I trusted him in just a while
He held out his hands
He as no boy, who from this were banned
Hesitant, I took my first stride
Second I stumbled and cried
His arms caught me and held me close
Tears ran down; he poked my nose
In his arms I found comfort
There was no judgment or hurt
He wasn’t perfect, but I liked that better
I decided to call him my big brother
My steps unsure into the unknown
Dark mist clouded my mind
My feet stumbled as if I was blind
Then there was a tap on my shoulder
Soft at first and then bolder
I spun around terrified and saw him there
His eyes turned soft with care
He tilted his head to the right
Confused at my fright
He frowned as he gazed
Until I calmed and my cheeks were ablaze
At this he smiled
I trusted him in just a while
He held out his hands
He as no boy, who from this were banned
Hesitant, I took my first stride
Second I stumbled and cried
His arms caught me and held me close
Tears ran down; he poked my nose
In his arms I found comfort
There was no judgment or hurt
He wasn’t perfect, but I liked that better
I decided to call him my big brother
Tortured Soul
The more I try to fight
The more you bind me tight
Your chains around me keep me bound
Unable to move, even along the ground
You keep me locked down below
Guarded with a poisoned arrow
Your ways to tame me became cruel
More and more as in confidence you grew
My spirit grows weaker and weaker
Your fists come down upon me stronger
My back is aching and sore
Hot tears fall down onto the floor
My will to live fades away
Your blows decrease my days
My soul is tortured enough
It wishes to fly away
The more you bind me tight
Your chains around me keep me bound
Unable to move, even along the ground
You keep me locked down below
Guarded with a poisoned arrow
Your ways to tame me became cruel
More and more as in confidence you grew
My spirit grows weaker and weaker
Your fists come down upon me stronger
My back is aching and sore
Hot tears fall down onto the floor
My will to live fades away
Your blows decrease my days
My soul is tortured enough
It wishes to fly away
Imprisoned Alone
Your words are false and hold no love
You say them as though empty words are enough
Your chains around me rattle and groan
You may say it but you don’t love me at all
When I was little, unaware
These shackles ‘round me made me feel safe and calm
Now they keep me locked and imprisoned
For nothing more than a revolting displays
You wish for a perfect picture
I cannot give that to you since it is not me
You tried to create a ‘perfect’ me
That is not who I am and will never be
Now I lay here so feeble and frail
Under the shadow of your powerful form
My feeble attempts to thwart your fist
They are no good against your powerful blows
Tears are all what fill my darkened eyes
Your anger is all that you offer to me
My cries are drowned by your dreadful laugh
I shiver as you close the door
You’ll be back, once more
You say them as though empty words are enough
Your chains around me rattle and groan
You may say it but you don’t love me at all
When I was little, unaware
These shackles ‘round me made me feel safe and calm
Now they keep me locked and imprisoned
For nothing more than a revolting displays
You wish for a perfect picture
I cannot give that to you since it is not me
You tried to create a ‘perfect’ me
That is not who I am and will never be
Now I lay here so feeble and frail
Under the shadow of your powerful form
My feeble attempts to thwart your fist
They are no good against your powerful blows
Tears are all what fill my darkened eyes
Your anger is all that you offer to me
My cries are drowned by your dreadful laugh
I shiver as you close the door
You’ll be back, once more
Never Ending Nightmares
The days turn into sleepless nights
There is no break from the living nightmare
Fear presides in the hearts of Christians
Loud screams fill the smoke infested air
There’s no safety for anyone
The homes meant for refuge torn and burnt down
Churches meant for prayer burnt to the ground
Create fear in innocent children’s eyes
Always the need to stay quiet
The need to stay hidden from oppressors
The fear of being betrayed or killed
There is no end to the wrong doings
The terror of watching loved ones die
Knowing any moment there could be death
Fear of knowing that your name is on a list
That the next minute could be the last
Is there no one that will listen
To the cries of the oppressed ones
Voices join together in a plea
A desperate plea for salvation
There is no break from the living nightmare
Fear presides in the hearts of Christians
Loud screams fill the smoke infested air
There’s no safety for anyone
The homes meant for refuge torn and burnt down
Churches meant for prayer burnt to the ground
Create fear in innocent children’s eyes
Always the need to stay quiet
The need to stay hidden from oppressors
The fear of being betrayed or killed
There is no end to the wrong doings
The terror of watching loved ones die
Knowing any moment there could be death
Fear of knowing that your name is on a list
That the next minute could be the last
Is there no one that will listen
To the cries of the oppressed ones
Voices join together in a plea
A desperate plea for salvation
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