Kitty's Existence

Its interesting how things seem to go so fast as the days go by. I've been in school for only about a week now and it seems as though time is flying past me. I feel lost at times but mostly confused. I get scared so randomly and it bugs me like anything. I don't know how to talk to people most of the time and feel like isolating myself. I feel scared to talk with anyone about it because of the fact that I expose myself too much. I hate the fact that I close up when people get too close and I hate seeing people react to it. I feel bad but can't seem to be able to control the reaction. I don't know... I reject people because of exposure... stupid me... I hope as the days go by I'll like be able to relax more and fall back into the normal school pattern and forget or at least send the throughts of vacation to the back of my mind.... Still that's hard to do considering the fact that my parents call like everyday expecting a full day's report and that's already enough. I really hope things get better..... Until then i'll just have to sit tight.... a bit annoying but nothing much that I can do...