A Difficult Past Week - Part 2

The next day I woke up and immediately called my family who told me that they had just reached my hometown. Feeling sad, I immediately called my big brother, now that I was not likely to cry the whole time and would be able to communicate somewhat. It was just my luck too, he answered. I told him what had happened but I cut the call short because I had to get to school. School wasn't great.

The first period I spent in Ms. Preeti's office talking with both Gultaj and her. Gultaj was able to cheer me up for the moment which was nice of him but the second I got to Mr. Powles' English class he kept going on and on about the death of Meursault's mother and I became sad all over again. I managed not to cry there but I got to Ms. Seefeldt's Euro class and spent half the time crying with my face turned towards the wall. By the time I got to AP Bio, my eyes were red and the people at my desk started asking why I looked like I was crying and then I started crying again and kind of ran out of class back into Ms. Preeti's office where I spent the rest of the class.

On Friday, I called my parents in the morning and heard my cousin brother [Jeeta's older brother who had not been told that she died and was just told to come back home immediately although I am pretty sure he already knew] crying in the background. There is something about hearing the cries of someone who never cries and someone who you love dearly that pulls at your heart so much. My mom had already told me that my aunt had started sitting with a lost look on her face and had no energy to do anything. I just couldn't take it anymore. I started crying and crying and my mom started crying.

I managed to not run into Ms. Preeti's office during the morning, but I knew that I would sooner or later because I knew that the funeral was on that day and it was only a matter of time before my mom texted me to let me know. I think the hardest part for me was not being here, dealing with everyone else, stuck in a place where I had to try and continue on as if nothing had happened. BUT after lunch, my mom called and I could hear so many people crying in the background and I just felt like doing nothing. I didn't want to do anything except for collapse. My mom said "The one closest to you among your cousins is gone." I literally felt so empty, even now, the thought of it now still makes me feel so empty, and my heart hurts so bad.

Milo found me wandering, about to cry and promptly took me to Ms. Preeti's office and when he found out she wasn't there he took me straight away to Mr. Pesavento's office where I spent the rest of the day. He even was sweet enough to even try and go to my teacher to say that I wasn't going to be able to go to class because I wasn't feeling good. He had a study hall with Mr. Pesavento last period and he came and tried to make me feel better. He even helped me make a blue play dough hat for a bunny USB in Mr. P's office.

This is the end of Part 2. Part 3 will be about a weekend at the Pesavento's house.