Juliana's Birthday Card

Just decided to put it here for her because I felt like letting her find it instead of just giving it to her. :)

All over the Emotional Radar

I know I'm PMSing when I start wanting to have the urge to swear at people... or when I have the urge to scream. Aig... I have been going on this HUGE emotional rollercoaster for the last few days. Seriously! I mean... one day I was playing UNO with my roommate, Nikki, and Kathryn and Simi. Simi was completely okay and did not do anything that irritated me. Nikki... oh dear... she started swearing every once in a while if we put a draw four on her.

Now... the other girl... oh that vile little... actually HUGE B***H! Sorry... I have issues with her in general... and that game just did not help. For example, whenever I am not in the room, she thinks that she can just take over my side of the room without my permission: use my desk and F-ing park on my bed, B***H! AND she whines so feaking much! I swear... sometimes I just want to ram her head into the wall! AND she thinks she can sing.... I cringe at her high notes.... just want to slap her somtimes! AND she thinks that all the guys in this school are wrapped around her little finger.... B***H! Oh yea... she is also dating my best friend's ex (oh yea my best friend is still not over him) ... B***H!


Anyways.... so yea... as you can see, I already have a lot of issues with her and probably should not be around her when I am PMSing. So back to the UNO game. Whenever she got even a draw two or a skip or a reverse she would start swearing away AND hitting us! I got so freaking mad! After like a few minutes of it, I screamed, twice, before I stormed out of my room. I was obviously mad. I did not return until she had left my room for the night.


The next day I avoided not knowing what colorful language might decide to come out. Even then... she found me in the morning walking up to school. First came Simi, who is the sweetest person ever, came up behind me and gave me a hug and asked me if I was okay. I said no and she was like okay and moved on. OH MY F-ING GOSH! That B***H tried to do that same thing... of course just so much more annoying. She tried to be all cute and stuff.... Simi asked me if I wanted them to go I didn't have to even talk for her to understand that I wanted that B***H off me now. She promptly dragged her away. Oh, I owe Simi so much. Anyways.. that night she's in my room... complaining and all that jazz.... I left again.


The next day, in school, I ended up just staying in the Health Center all morning cuz of cramps. Then they kicked me out. I mean... the pain hadn't gone but they didn't know what else to do... they gave me like three different things for it. Anyways. So I left cuz I didn't want to cause any more trouble and before I started having a PMS yelling session.

After that I left for Bio class. I felt so much like Hermione. I actually knew what we were talking about! So I kept raising my hand in class to answer! Haha... Ms. Leon kept asking a question and then saying that anyone whose name starts with an 'A' can't answer. That's because the only people who were answering the questions and being all like 'pick me! pick me!' were me, Andrew and Ashima. So that makes up everyone in my class having names beginning with 'A' except for one girl. After that I went with Mrs. P and looked for Props for the muscial. Oh my gosh I was so happy! We found so much stuff that we could use for it! It was like everything was starting to fall into place so I was happy and so was Mrs. P. After that, I came back down to dorms and saw everyone leave for Sadies. Then afterwards I turned on the TV, cuz I had it all to myself... MUWHAHAHA!!! I ended up watching 'The Phantom' and 'Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time.' Oh.... it was brilliant!

Then this morning, I woke up with more cramps... so I was pretty grumpy. It didn't help when that B***H came in and started complaining again. AND THEN she called one of my friends a b***h.... grrr.... I ordered her out of my room and she was all like "it's not just your room. I can stay in here as long as I want." Oh gosh.... I wanted to... I dunno... strangle her maybe? You know why she was calling her a b***h? Just because Simi didn't allow her to get infront of her in a freaking race for Sports Day. Seriously... Am I the only one who notices how evil she is??

So yes... I was grumpy. When everyone left the room, Simi came to visit me. I told her and then talked to her about how pissed off I was at Kathryn. Aig... thankfully she understands me... anyways... after that I checked my email and guess what!!! I AM OFF OF PROBATION!!! I was so freaking happy! And now I just finished watching the Korean drama that I was watching, City Hunter... *sigh* I feel content. I liked the ending no matter what everyone else says. I mean come on guys!! Lee Min Ho LIVES!!!! I think that makes it a perfect ending. :D So yes, I am off in a good mood... for now. Who knows how long that will last. Oh well... I'll just rewatch the end... *sigh*

Anyways... I am off.

Thinking of College

It seems like the pressure really gets put on you when you hit 12th grade. Everyone expects you to be ready to apply to colleges. Everyone boasts about the colleges they are going to apply too, especially the smart kids. You know what sucks? Being not that smart or not as well "rounded" as colleges seem to want nowadays. What do we do?

We have more work when it comes to looking for colleges. We can't apply for those well known, super smart, super expensive colleges like Harvard, Yale, Brown and so on. This is for a few reasons. One, some people are just not that super smart. We don't get grades that are all A+ or get devastated when it drops to an A. We aren't the school co-president or the soccer captain or the NHS president or the president of the Honor Council. We aren't perfect in every single thing we try.

This year, AP Biology is probably going to kill me. I don't understand it even half as well as some of the bio experts in my class do. My English teacher is such a hard grader that I get scared to show him even my non-class work scared that he's just going to make fun of me or just correct the gazillion mistakes which are probably in it. Even if I love the subject of Stats, my teacher happens to be the most blunt person in the world and yet his comments and criticisms do hit me pretty deep.

I could go on but then I'd sound like whining. I'm not trying to do that... I'm just trying to make a point. It's hard for people like me, who have regularly have a hard time in school get into colleges that we would want to get into. We can't aim high and we are encouraged not to do so. Counselors will tell us to come back to earth.

Others around us whine about how someone else is applying to the same school as them such as Yale or Darthmouth and how they will have to compete with this classmate. You stand there awkwardly as you think about how they wouldn't dream to try to apply to the colleges you try to apply to sometimes only because your family can't afford to send you somewhere more expensive. You aim for colleges that will help you financially the most and give scholarships that apply to people like you, not so smart but not stupid either.

The smart kids seem to live in a different realm than you. They stand around discussing who is applying for the best IV league colleges and what they want to do. You think about it and come to the conlusion that you still have no clue what you want to do. The counselor hands you a copy of your trascript and you want to either 1) burn it 2) pretend that you never saw it or 3) go hide in a corner for the rest of your miserable life.

How would you be able to reach that impossible dream of yours that will always seem beyond your grasp? What were you think when you got all hyped when you started looking through the requirements for college? Why in the world did you think you had the chance? More over, you start thinking, why try when you know you're not going to get that far?

For me Stats project

Cold and Wet Feet

You know what's not cool? Having to come to school and be soaking wet. It's not fun... not even close to being fun.

What's worse is having to spend the entire day like that... meh. My cold which had been going away, returned with vigour. I shall wait for the day Monsoon ends with vigour.

You know what just occured to me? This will be my last monsoon here in Woodstock for a while. That's actually kind of sad. Not the monsoon part but the start of 'last this, last that...' I love Woodstock but it is my Senior Year.

Anyways... moving onto more pleasent things. We are starting up the newspaper again, with some changes... YAY! There are only three editors... only three GIRLS decided to stay from last year's batch. This year's batch of newbies is kind of small as well. That's why we changed somethings. I hope it turns out well. :)

There is just so much to do! At least, it feels like it. I mean, there is some stuff which I have no clue about and don't know how to do them. And then there is stuff which I do know how to do... but it's still huge amounts of work.

Anyways, I'm going to go now. One because the internet is going to turn off soon... and two because I am sick and tired of having to use this laptop which is like... not really letting me use regular blogger so it just looks weird as well... anyways... till later. :)

First Week of School Over

Technically it is the beginning of the second week of classes. The first week only had three days of class, but I guess it still counts. I know I said that I would tell you about my first day of school but I decided to wait until all the classes were final and I was able to have all of my classes.

So far I am taking, Stats (with Mr. Philip), Piano (with Ms. Johnson), Journalism (with Mr. Plonka), AP Bio (with Ms. Leon), English Lit. (with Mr. Powles), RE (with Mr. Jay) and European History (with Ms. Seefeldt). I think I like Euro, English and Journalism the best this year.

Choir is during lunch. This is not such a great idea seeing that the dining staff do not want to cooperate with us. Today after choir, we all rushed down and the dining hall was almost out of food. Even the staff didn't get much! So of course we complained to Mr. Okie who was planning on going and complaining himself.

Everything else is okay. I feel like such a nerd though... I spend so much time studying and working on my homework and doing extra stuff... Anyways... I have to go do more... meh. Plus Ms. Preeti wants to talk to me.... hmmm... so yea. Till Later!

Start of Senior Year (sort of)

Alright, it's not exactly started yet. Well, dorm life has, not school yet. So far it's gone well. I have a new roommate who likes to be called Nikki. My twin happens to live across the hall from me. My scores on the Toefl and AP were pretty good. Unpacking went pretty well as well.

Still, I feel sad. I feel sad that I did not recieve a hug from the one person whose hugs I always look forward to at the beginning of each semester, no... the hugs that I looked forward to everyday that I was here from the moment I woke up. I miss my big brother...

I miss my best friend too. The one who seemed to always be the one who connected me to my grade. Now she's gone and I feel lonely here without her... :( Not to mention, I kind of do miss helping her unpack, even if it was a whole lot. I miss her food too... Although she was so sweet by asking others to get me some. :) She also sent me a present which I am going to get later. The person who has it still hasn't unpacked it... oh well. I can wait. :) I wonder what it is... if the person takes too long I might get frustrated and just barg into Hostel looking for it... although... I don't think it would be such a good idea... so they better give it fast.

I think I should go now... internet is going to die soon. AND I have school tomorrow... regular time... I will try to write more tomorrow. Till later!

Bad day

I wrote this yesterday but just did not have the time to post it before my mother unplugged the internet.

Today, for the first time since I got back to BBSR, I left the neighborhood. It was amazing to once again be away from my prison for the short time I was out. My mother took me along with her to go shopping since she couldn't just leave me alone. Technically I wasn't alone since my cousin brother came back but then he apparently wanted to go get a few things as well. Either way, I got to go out and it was nice to see a different scene for those few hours.

The upsetting thing however, was the reaction I got. I have basically been living with a bunch of women. First my sisters then my mom, then my aunts and one of the college students. The only 'men' I had seen were a few college teachers, my cousins, uncle and that was it. I went outside and I could see the way their eyes lingered too long on me. I shuddered as I walked one guy who was blatantly staring at me. There was something in his eyes that made me recoil and grab my cousin's hand.

I got back to my prison and strangely felt relatively better to be in a place that I knew. I don't know it it's a good thing or if it is a bad thing. Either way, my comfort soon turned into anger once my sisters reached home. Lunch was uneventful. However after that, my mother told me to hide the remote from my youngest sister so that she would do her homework rather than watch. I hide the remote and recieved three hits to the head with a wooden spoon. I was so angry. I turned around, grabbed the spoon from her and smacked her. I just did it on pure instinct. I let my anger get the best of me and then my mom got angry with me for defending myself when I was losing freaking brain cells. I still have a headache from what happened in the afternoon.

Once again, I want to get out of this prison. I'm tired of living under a roof where I am nothing but property. No one wants to deal with my sister's temper tantrums so they place it on me. No one wants to deal with my cousin who isn't eating so they push that responsibility on me. No one wants to tutor my sisters because they do not respect their teachers or do their work so they push that responsibility on me again. If I try to say no, they blackmail me saying that they will not allow me to return to Woodstock and I know that they will attempt to carry out that threat if they need to. I am tired of this. How can I tolerate yet another year of this? I want to give up so bad so that they will see that what they are doing is wrong and not hurt others.

Why is this so complicated? I don't know... but still. Anyways... this is enough thinking for now. Till later.

Almost Time to say See you Later

I can't believe that it's only like a week until it'll be summer vacation and people will be loading into buses to return home or go somewhere else for the summer break. Yikes, I've said bye to a few people already, now I have to say bye to the few people in Woodstock who have meant the most to me.

Although Morgan and Magill have been here only for a semester, they have become a part of my life. They are some of the best roommates ever. Those two plus me, Jeena and Dimpu equals the best room... EVER! At first actually, it was just supposed to be me, Jeena and Dimpu who were going to room together. The day we reached school we figured out that Morgan and Magill were crashing our room as well. At first I thought it was going to be rather strange but those two were just as equally crazy and fun and fit right in with us. Sure in the beginning Jeena was a bit distraught that she would not get as much space, I think it was for the best that we gained two surprise roommates. I'm never going to forget watching Russel Peters when we woke up in the morning and got ready for school or late nights when we just stayed up and played truth & truth or watched a movie together or the birthday surprises at midnight or any other amazing memory which would take forever to write because I could go on and on and on about them. In the end, I know that those two have made me smile numerous times with their amazingness and that I'm going to miss them loads.

Not only are those two leaving, Jeena's leaving too. Do you know how depressing that is for me? She's been my best girl friend since middle school! How in the world am I not going to miss her! :( I only found out halfway through the semester that her dad was pulling her out of Woodstock. I really don't want her to go home and she doesn't want to either. It sucks that our lives are still dominated by our fathers who care about no one but themselves and what they want. They are such control freaks, I swear... If you've heard me rant about my father, then try multiplying that by like 1000. That's how bad Jeena's dad can get. This is why I don't want her to go home. Well, that's not the only reason. I also am going to miss the one person who I could talk to almost everything about in dorms. The only person who didn't mind me raiding her food cupboard. :( Now my darling best friend who is also like a sister to me is returning home, somewhere I don't want her to go. I'm going to miss her so much! I don't know what I'm going to do without her next year.

Now, Jeena's leaving, guessing who else is leaving. Yes, my big brother who is the most wonderful, annoying, cute, adorable, stubborn, hyper and crazy person in the world. My big brother is ditching me for the world out there in College. :( I mean, it's bad enough that I am losing my best friend, I'm also losing my bestest big brother. He's been a HUGE part of my life for the last 3 1/2 years. And now... he's gonna be gone. Meh... I hate goodbyes. I have no clue what I'm going to do next year without him. He's always been there for me and now he's not going to be here to get me ice-cream at the strangest time or give me hugs whenever I need/want them or let me get his shirt all wet from crying or take me OB to have non-school food or to tickle me to death or to annoy me or make me have a heart attack when he does stuff that I think is dangerous and a bit scary or take me to buzzar or a whole bunch of stuff that I could go on forever mentioning! I'm going to miss him sooooooo uber much. Although it hasn't hit completely yet, I know it will when I'm chatting with him and he talks about being this place and that place which I have no clue about... on the other side of the world. It's going to hit the most when I get back to school and not have him to text to and have him asking me how long it's going to take to get home to him... and when I get off the bus when coming up with school party and not having him there to give me a hug or to get me to come up to school on a non-school day just because he's up there doing something in Parker Hall.

Next year is going to be so hard without a lot of the familiar faces. Thankfully people like Dimpu and Anti-Social and Shalaka and Hazel will be there. It's going to be hard though, I'm losing 2 out of the 3 people who I tell almost everything to. I couldn't think of rooming with anyone but Jeena... so I ended up signing up to room with a new student next year. Hopefully, they'll be nice. I just don't know who else to room with. I mean, I have roomed with Jeena every single year and for Senior she's not going to be there. As for the Senior Pages... I really really really wanted to do it with Jeena but she's not going to be there... :(

Not to mention, I'm becoming techie for next year's journalism class. They also asked me to help out with the Economic Magazine thing. I'm also taking the Yearbook class... YIKES! I'm going to need a bigger laptop... and yet my mother is stingy and wants to keep a laptop which she uses once or twice a month just because it is hers. Geez... my netbook was basically designed for internet... she doesn't even need much space, she just wants to be able to use the internet... it's sad, her laptop goes un-used because she won't let anyone but me and her touch it. If my sisters need to use the internet, guess who has to get the laptop for them.. Me, that's who. Meh... I should go back to doing my Choir essay. Yes I know, lame. Who the heck does choir essays... well I guess people here do. It sucks but I need the grade. Till later!

Caring for a roommate

Last night I saw something that I will never ever forget. One of my roommates found out that her dog had died. As she lay there in bed, and cried, one roommate moved first and pulled her into a hug. Another roommate came back to the room and without even asking what was wrong, went on the otherside and wrapped her in a hug. Then the last roommate and I moved and joined the hug. We all sat there and held her in our arms and held her hands until she stopped crying. Even then, we all sat there and wipped her tears as she told us about her dog. We all listened and cried with her, laughed with her as she told us about these memories.

Unfortunately, I got a phone call so I had to move outside to take it but when I left, I looked back and saw how the other four sat there. It would have been a great picture to show love between my roommates. I came back and I was easily able to fit back. This is one thing that I love in dorms. You may be far from home, but there are people who will drop what they are doing and make time for you because they know if something similar happened to them, they would like the same.

Even after my roommate had stopped crying and gone back to work, we would occasionally pass her and ruffle her hear or poke her nose or give her a quick hug before we went out the door. I really think that this made a difference for her. Even if we didn't say it, I could feel the it in the atmosphere in the room.

I stopped and thought back later during the night. They always have pictures of girls smiling or working on something or playing a game in the magazines for Woodstock but they never show how something like this. They never show something like what I experienced last night. I don't think it can be captured in a photo or a video, but it is something that is there and will always be there.

17 years old

The pic is also on my art blog but I felt like putting it up here as well.... anyways... continuing.

Goodness gracious... I'm 17 now. I feel slightly old... not much I can do about it though. I got sung for during Tea time... meh... and now people know it's my birthday! I mean, I guess some people did but now loads of people do... my silly roommates. Oh... speaking of roommates.

So yea last night I ended up getting 11 people to wish me even before it was 12:10am. What in the world? Yea... so I got a call from my big brother... YAY!!! Which was nice cuz he stayed up to wish me... which I thought was uber sweet. Then there were my roommates. I like closed my eyes for a minute and was almost asleep and then I sensed that there was movement so I woke up. All of my roommates were crowded around my bed and staring down at me... creepy! I like sat up and was like "ack!" Then they sang for me and stuff. Then I tried to go to sleep again after that and got text messages from my cousin. Then after that I got a text message from my parents and both my sisters... that's 11 people before 12:10am! Aig...

Yesterday I went OB with my uncle's family since they were in Dehradun and they came to visit me. We went into the buzz and went to Four Seasons for dinner. Then they paid for me to get ice-cream and take it to dorms. Anjuri was adorable and kept hiding from me. Whenever she would see me, she would smile and be all like "Ankita Nani!" It was sooooooooooo uber cute! Sadly, they had to leave early because she wanted to go back home and my aunt's mother was tired... :( On the ride back to dorms, I got to hold Aaron and after bouncing around for a while, he fell asleep on my lap. It was UBER UBER UBER UBER UBER DADORABLE! I got pictures of it too! :P

Anyways, I got back to dorms and I went for House Time and guess what they had.... ICE-CREAM! Yay! It was a pretty good too. Yesterday was just amazingly fun in general. Today Mr. Garcia has given me numerous hugs for my birthday. I also got a hug from my big brother... yay! I feel special. :P Anyways... now I should probably work on my homework. It would be a good idea. I also have an IGCSE exam tomorrow so I should go study more for. Yep yep... I shall be off... until next time! :P

Manic Morgan

I have to say, out of all the roommates I have had, Morgan has been the most amazingly crazy. Well for starters, she sleep talks. I mean like almost every night. It's freaking awesome! I'm usually the one who hears her sleep talk because I am up the latest. Hey! I can't help it... motherly instinct says "make sure everyone else has slept before drifting off yourself" Well... something like that. Anyways... continueing... She has the most amazing and random things to say in the middle of the night such as "I'M A BOY!" And she talks back to you and answers and everything! It's just amazing... anyways... moving on...

She dances too. I mean.. she has this little spastic dance kind of thing she does every once in a while... it's funny and cute. And then when she's listening to music on Magill's laptop she starts dancing while still sitting on her bed. Does that count as dancing? Well.... it sure looks close to it. And she pretends to be singing the song too and moves her head from side to side and all that jazz.

Next, she has amazing music. I mean... it doesn't sound like music at all sometimes... but it's really catchy at times and I find myself wanting to drum it out on something or the other but end up not doing it. She also has real music on her ipod to which she finally got new earphones to which is good cuz otherwise she looked kind of lost looking for earphones to borrow from someone or the other.

Next... she has the most embarrasing moments ever. Yesterday we had house time and most people went that day so that food had run out. Morgan upon hearing that there was Strawberry Ice-cream raced out of the room and you she had just come out of the shower and wasn't properly dressed yet( and no there will not be details). It was so sad when she showed up in her state and found out that there was no more ice-cream left.

Next... she has incredible luck with adults. For example, after last night's incident, Ms. Ronita made her and a few other people more food and it was amazing cuz I was one of the few people who didn't get food yesterday. I didn't get any because I came late from AP study hall at school. Not only do the dormparents love her, her teachers at school do too.

Anyways... I'm going to miss her when she leaves... along with the other peoplez... oh well...

My dream from last night

This was my dream from last night:

It started like any other day. I was on Ridgewood Field and started walking towards Alter Ridge. Just then realized that were were people on the roof of Alter Ridge. I was trying to figure out what they were doing when they just started firing on the kids that were down in front of the dining hall.. I wasn't that close so I ducked behind the stone wall. A few seconds later, the firing stopped and I saw a bunch of boddies in front of the dining hall. Other people who had manged to hide were running as fast as they could towards Hostel.

However... I knew that more people were going to get hurt if they didn't know about the terrorists. So I went near the woodshop and climbed down the khud and around till I got to lover's lane. From there I ran up till I got to midlands but even as I did I could hear more guns firing and screaming. I finally managed to reach up and told them about the terrorists.

Everyone started panicking but like in all dreams... people who aren't really suppossed to be there were and so there were teachers and boys in my dream, up in Midlands. It was strange but anyways. After that, people started organizing a group of people who would scout out the area. I started getting freaked out because my big brother was one of those people so I volenteered to go too.

We used lover's lane to sneak out of Midlands and check on the terrorists. There were about 20 or so of them all on the roof of Alter Ridge, dressed in black with loads of weapons. We managed to sneak back to Midlands and tell the security about how many terrorists we had found. Not too much later, a scout came back to report that there were only 10 or so terrorits on the roof. Some were missing. Just then there was a bomb blast that took apart half of Midlands. Those who were outside were lucky, those on the inside... not so much.

The survivors managed to get down to the laundry rooms and we hid there. Others that couldn't fit went down hill and hid. Not too much later we heard a bunch of commotion and me and my brother went out to see what had happened. It was the police who had managed to get the terrorist and rounded them up onto Ridgewood field. I was so happy and hugged my big brother because I could have lost him but I didn't.

One of the teachers looked at us and was like PDOA but then my english teacher said to let us be and that we could all have died but we didn't so we should be happy. And I was happy as I hugged my big brother. And then I woke up.

Quarter Break Hike

Okay, once again this is long overdue. I have yet to have written about my Quarter Break and i have to say, that was the most amazing QB in ages! I'm not kidding. So basically, we went hiking. Yea, I know... it sounds boring and hard and something that you wouldn't want to do during vacation, WRONG! It was the perfect thing! True, I didn't get 20 hours of sleep a day or spend lots of money shopping for stuff... it was great. First of all, we hiked for like four days. That was uber hard but at the end of it all, it created this feeling of accomplishment. I'm really glad that I finished it. Sure there were hard times but I think that's what made the good times amazing, and some were a mixture of both. Anyways... I shall give you a brief interview of what we did each day. Day 1: (okay... technically it started the day before with us staying at Hanifl, hanging out at Char Dukan and getting our gear/packing oh and not to mention this amazing TV show about food places in the states that I am definitely checking out but we can skip that part for now.) Anyways... So yea. The day started at five in the morning for me. I woke up when I thought someone was pounding on the door but it turns out that they weren't. I just ended up getting out of bed and packing up the rest of my stuff and getting ready to leave. We walked to school for breakfast and then down to dorms to get into the buses. I right away took one of the front seats due to my car sickness and Wolfy sat next to me. That was a good thing cuz during the ride i ended up getting sleepy so i just used him as a pillow. Hehe... Jeena was jealous of me because aparently, her boyfriend is too skinny to be comfortable... :P Anywhos. So after we got to our drop off point, we started hiking. And wow, it was way harder. First of all, before I had been a lot more fit and had been hiking every saturday that semester and second of all, I had a heavier backpack. In the end, I just ended up staying near the back with Mr. Nagarwalla and we just talked which was really nice. When we got to the campsite, Wolfy and Shayan gave a us a demonstration on how to set up a tent. Once we got camp set up, we played Mafia and then cooked dinner, which was wai wai, vegetables and eggs. It was okay, I guess. Anywhos, after that we built a fire which was nice. We all hungout around the fire and i ended up sitting in between Wolfy and Shayan because apparently the smoke didn't like me so by hanging out with me they didn't get attacked by the smoke. Oh my gosh. There were so many freaking dirty jokes... *Sigh* Then of course there was all the talking that came from one of the boy's tents... they were saying things that sounded so freaking wrong... aya... it made everyone outside laugh though. Tis what I get from hanging out with a bunch of boys. Day 2: We made breakfast: omelet thingy with lots of vegetables. Then after that, we ended up packing up our tents and heading out of camp. I stayed in the back with Mr. Nagarwalla agian and we just talked. It was nice. I mean I told him a few new things and he gave me advice about some stuff. Which was a good thing... anyways... It didn't take too long to get to our next campsite but near the end, Mr. Nagarwalla put me in the front for a bit which worked for all of the 10 minutes and then everyone ended up going infront of me again... Anyways, I got to the campsite, we set up camp. had lunch and then ended up leaving everything except for a water bottle and heading towards the summit. Going up to the summit was annoying. Thankfully Wolfy walked up with me in the back and showed me the longer paths which were easier to climb. At the summit we got a lecture during which I tried very hard not to fall asleep in since it was warm plus I was using Wofly as my pillow and it was really comfortable... and yea... We played sticks which is like spoons but requires running. Anyways, it was a pretty good game and there were fun parts such as the time when Shayan ran after Jeena's boyfriend and tackled him since he wanted the stick... oh dear. Afterwards, we started walking down and then I started freaking out because of heights and stuff... yea... I sat for like 10 minutes or something like that on a rock cuz I thought I was going to fall to my death... silly me but Wolfy was patient and waited for me even though his feet were hurting. When I finally got up and started walking down again, I started getting this pain in my ribs. Every time I breathed in and out it hurt like hell. So yea... I ended up getting down to the camp and then Wolfy was uber nice to get my stuff when I needed it and then he helped me get drugs and stuff for the pain... after that I just sat and watched the sky change color as the sun started to set and as the storm started. We had pasta and stuff that night. It was really good except for the fact that our stuff started to fly away in the wind. Thankfully the storm didn't really hit us and just past by us and stuff... That night we had another campfire and Shayan, Wolfy and me hung out till late night, which was amazingly fun. Day 3: I got put in the front. Oh my gosh. It was strange. The last two days I had walked in the back so Mr. Nagarwalla put me in the front to "pace" the group. It was fun and I got to walk in front with Mr. Nagarwalla and Wolfy. We saw a snake which scared me to death and not to mention a lizard which scared me too cuz I thought it was another snake. When we finally stopped for lunch it was so nice! I stopped and like died. I also slept for a bit, which was nice. Not long after we finished with lunch we started off again. Once again Mr. Nagarwalla made me go infront. *sigh* I liked it when I got him off topic cuz he would stop to take pictures and that meant that Wolfy and me could walk slower and keep moving forward. (BTW: Wolfy carried my tent for me... *sigh* he didn't have to but he did... meh) However, by the time we got to the valley... my feet were killing me. *sigh* After that I ended up being near the back which was fine with me cuz otherwise I would have gotten lots of people mad at me. Wolfy stayed with me cuz his feet were also hurting and at one point he stepped in like mud which he thought was shallow... but it like ate his foot up... hehe... it was funny. People stopped and waited for us every once in a while but the thing is that after a while they had the last stretch till they got to the camp. Me and Wolfy ended up getting lost for a while cuz we followed the guide but he was lost too. It was nice though... Wolfy was being uber nice to me... I felt special... I think I was way too tired and started to like hum and get like on this high mood. Wolfy had to make me sit down a few times to make me drink water and rest cuz I was dying... when we finally reached camp I was so happy! We set up the remaining stuff and I just died for a while. I mean, I seriously couldn't walk. I was like hobbling around and stuff. Dinner that night was okay but I didn't really feel like eating that much... The group who did games that night did a pretty good job. I don't really remember what the game was though cuz me and Shayan sat it out and just sat by the fire and stuff. It looked fun though. Oh yea! And the branches and stuff we put in the fire was apparently smokable. So people were like smoking it... it was strange. I didn't of course but almost everyone else did. As usual we hung out by the fire and that night a lot of people were there after the games and such. It was funny though cuz then we could hear the boys talking about JSB. They get obsessed by it too! Hehe... it was funny. I didn't stay up too late though, I was tired and besides, Shayan wasn't there, he injured himself and so he went to sleep early... oh well. Day 4: We woke up later and had to write essays and stuff. Then Wolfy, Shayan, Jeena and me had to do our game thingy. Wolfy and Shayan did the obstacle course while me and Jeena explain to people what they were doing and what the rules were. It was really fun and after that me and Jeena taught people how to play ninja, which is the most awesome game ever! After that, we walked back to the road where our bus was waiting. We sat in the same spots and it was nice because I used Wolfy as a pillow... again... oh well. We got back to Hanifl Center it was nice and all but I missed the time I spent with people around the campfire. Over all... it was a good hike. It made me feel accomplished and special. I also passed my Outdoor credit requirements so now I have 30 hours out of the way... YAY! The group of people who went were a good group too so it was rather nice. If I had to do it again, mind you with the same people, I would so do it. :)

Update on life

Wow... it's, as usual, been a while since I've written in my blog.... whoops?

Anyways... I haven't talk about my trip to Rajaji which is porbably what i should do now. Anyways... it was an amazing time. I got to hang out with my grade and get away from the hectic school life. Some of my favorite parts were:

- Hanging out with Vivi :P and dimpu... whenever she wasn't hanging out with guys.

- The Safari Ride. It was just brilliant! It was my first time ever riding in an open Jeep. IT WAS AWESOME! I stood the entire time! It was really fun. :P Although... sadly we didn't get too see any leopards.... where as the other groups aparently had! It was kind of sad... but at least it was really fun AND i made people happy by being happy which was good.

- Oh oh! And there was the sunset... it was so pretty! Okay... imagine this. You are on a dirt road in the middle of a valley. You're standing so you can see everything. In the distance there are these cliffs. On top of the cliffs are these trees, but they look really small since they are so far away but it's all good cuz then you can see the sunset. The sun is setting and so that part is like a pretty yellow. Then the sky around it goes from this really pretty golden color to like a pinkish/orangish color to purple and then closest to you is a nice sky blue along with the nice small puffs of clouds. The valley you are in is starting to darken which is in contrast to the bright sky. On the otherside of the sunset is a start of a hill with a forest that beckoned. And on the plain, deer stood in clusters and watched us from a distance with wary eyes. We were the aliens in the land but if didn't look at the noisy jeeps or the other people and just concentrated on nature... it felt like I could actually... you know... be there... it was so pretty... *sigh*

Well... that's kind of all i have from my trip that i remember... well the good parts. The bad parts including being yelled at my Dr. Philip but oh well... it don't matter anymore... we can skip those parts. Anywhos... moving on.

As for life now... hmm... it's pretty much alright. Although... I would say that it could be better. I ist mad at my dad as usual but I am getting closer to Vivi which... is really, REALLY nice. :) Wolfy's leaving but I hope it'll be ok... his present is working out well... and I plan on starting to get opinions on it soon... since yea... it's been a secret... i mean people know about it but... no one's yea... anywhos... moving on.

I should probably go do other stuff now... I will try to write more later but yea.. I might write after the RE retreat.. WHICH IS COMING UP!!!! SOOOOOO EXCITED! They are already here so I met them already and I ist happy. :P YAY!!!! Anyways... off I go.... till later!

P.S. - I lost my voice for a bit... but it's back! Although... I am still a little bit sick.

Being bored during study hall

Back in School

YES! I am back in school. You have no idea how happy I am!! :P The trip up here wasn't too bad. True I did get into a little trouble in the airport, cut myself by accident to the point where it was bleeding, got hit in the head with a falling suitcase and a few more awkward things. However, otherwise it was pretty good.

The last few days at home was okish. Seriously all I did this vacation was pack, pack, unpack, pack, unpack.... you get the pattern. SO annoying. Anywhos... that was in the past and now I ist in school! YAY! People think I am crazy for wanting to go back to school but i can take it as a compliment... besides if you lived in my house you'd be crazy to go back to school.

Anywhos... I ist got new roommates and they are pretty cool. And now basically everyone's back. I can't wait for school to start but at the same time I don't really want homework. I mean it's great to be back but teachers give way too much homework. However, I guess it's better than home. Not to mention I have internet again I can continue making posts and yea... I should be off. Got work to do.

Till later... :P

Snag the scooter

Yes I know this post is titled "Snag the scooter" however, before I tell you about that I will tell you about the events that lead up to this... ah... event.

So far it's been a month and nine days since I came back to here for the vacations. I have a feeling that it has been a very long month and nine days... especially considering the fact that I would like to get back to school as soon as possible. BUT... that's not gonna happen considering the fact that my ticket isn't booked until like the 5th of Feb which is sad and depressing.

During this time I had been pushed to be... um... not me. It's very tiring to put up a fake you. It's even worse when it's unavoidable. That's what I've been doing for a month and nine days. It's very tiring and pushes you to your limits. My family should be glad that my limits for stuff like this is far away. However, when I stay with them... too long... then I happen to get close enough to see my limits... *sigh*

Anyways... coming back to snagging scooters. This morning I was dragged, without my consent, to my dad's college. I was still not very awake either. It was very annoying. I had to sit through their daily meeting... grrr. That happened yesterday as well. Yesterday I waited and waited and then I finally got sick of waiting. Besides... I hadn't eaten breakfast and it was close to lunch! I managed to convince Arthur finally gave me the key for one of the scooters and helped me escape. Thankfully that morning, I had locked the house so I had the house keys.

That happened this morning too... so this time... I did not wait for my parents to take forever... the second the meeting ended I went straight away to Arthur and got the scooter key. However, this time my dad knew what I was up to and sent one of his students to spy on me. It was pathetic and annoying because the scooter was 'cold' and took a while to start up. So he stood on the balcony of the second floor and laughed his head off. I will get revenge though on both my father and him. I happen to know his girlfriend... as for my father... he'll get everything that he deserves... one day.

Anywhos... I happened to snag the scooter twice already and I feel very happy. I also keep the house keys and scooter keys in my pocket. That way, I have means to escape and stuff. :P Well... that was basically the most exciting parts of my day... except for when a dog tried to attack me when I was going by on the scooter but that was short so yea.. Anywhos... till later!!

P.S. - I now have an artist page!! Yay! I ist happy :P.

Balangir Trip, New Year

The Sunset...







These vines were growing around the house and I found it cool.













I was trying to get that photo where there are foot steps in the wet sand but it epically failed...





Do not attempt to walk over that barefoot during the day... it was... very hot... I would know.





Moosey Moose, the cutest moose toy in the world!



I know, I know... this post is long due. I said I'd be back either 27-28 Dec or 3-4 Jan. However I actually returned on the 29th and have yet to actually post... I'm sorry that I was being a lazy bum. Anywhos... continuing.

My Christmas, well actually my Balangir Trip was pretty good. I actually don't celebrate Christmas anymore. It kind of seems like a regular day. I don't get presents like a normal kid does and my parents don't do anything special... it's kind of sad really. It's like my family ends up skipping Christmas altogether.

Well... moving on... My time in Balangir was pretty good. I got to see lots of my relatives especially my baby cousin brother... he's so cute!! I love him... :P Most of the time I was the one who was taking care of him except for when he was with his parents of course.

Of course there were people who I could have seen less of such as my annoying perverted second cousin, my dad (even though he took me there), etc. Oh did I ever mention that all my dad did was try to drag me and my family around for his own purposes. We had to follow him without questioning and being his happy little family on show... Gr... there were sometimes when I really wanted to just yell at him.

Anywhos.... continuing... We were supposed to come back on the 28th or at least we planned to but in the end, through many events which frustrated my dad :D, we ended up staying another day. It was quite fun. :P Both bugging my dad and and staying another day.

However the next day we ended up returning the next day. We left really late and ended up driving through the night to get home. By the time we got home it was 12 midnight. We had dinner and ended up sleeping around 1 o'clock. That was sad and not really that cool.

New Years Eve wasn't any better either. My parents made us to go this watch night service which we attended until 3 o'clock and by the time we dropped other people off at their homes it was 4 am in the morning when we got back. The next morning my dad woke us up at eight o'clock.... I BARELY GOT 4 hours of sleep... it was so bad. I was so not in the mood to follow my dad around again. Sadly I barely got a chance to complain... :(.

I should have been happy for the New Year and been happy on that day but I was mad the entire day. I didn't like that fact. I cried on that day too!! What a way to start a new year... Oh well... and that's my update for last year.

P.S. - In this part I want to thank my big brother for cheering me up whenever I got upset. He ist amazing and I love him for that. He kept me going through the hard parts during the vacations and all through out the last year. Thanks Wolfy...